ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
you collect scars because you want proof that you are paying for whatever sins you've committed.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
It’s silent conversations held in the form of looks that linger and hold so much weight it weighs on the eyes, of a single purposeful touch disguised as an accident, of fingers laced together like vines, hidden under tables, behind backs. It’s what you say don’t you don’t speak.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
Love softens all your sharp edges, makes you pliant, makes you soft, shapes your mouth into a permanent ‘yes.’ It’s no wonder we bend so easily, give in so prettily; it’s no wonder we break so thoroughly when it goes wrong.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i said, i love you, when i meant something much more specific. i should have said, please don't leave me, i'm afraid to sleep alone.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i wish you were in this room with me right now. i wish i could put my arms around you. i wish i could touch you.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
⠀the worst part of love is that i remember it .
i walk around all day thinking : i’m going to die in the universe you loved me in .
i get so jealous of euthanized dogs .
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i always think of you before i fall asleep. the words you said, the way you looked. the things we laughed about, the silent moments we shared. and when i dream, i'll dream of you. because it's about you, it's always about you.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i had no interest. i had no interest in anything. i had no idea how i was going to escape. at least the others had some taste for life. they seemed to understand something that i didn't understand. maybe i was lacking. it was possible.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i can endure it forever, of course. for all of eternity if i have to. i can do it because i'm me.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i'm not a good person. ask anyone who loves me. i never write, i never call, i never think about anyone at all. no matter what i do, my exhaustion will consume me and i'm too tired for the truth.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
【𝙸 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚎, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙸 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝, 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝙸 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚑𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐.】
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ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i know my existence is temporary and so is yours, but god, please, as much as i love the stars they don't last forever. i don't mind being temporary as long as it means i'm temporary with you.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. i did not like to be touched because i craved it too much. i wanted to be held very tight so i would not break.
ᴄɪʟʟɪᴀɴ retweeted
i want to kiss you. not on your mouth, but on your most secret scars, your ashy black and journeyed knees, your ring finger, the trigger finger, those hands the world fears so much.















