izzy! is fruity

hii i'm izzy!! im 19! ('05) they/he :3 employed + student : still insane💔 tw: self injury, disordered eating, mentions of substances, paranoia, su*c*de, some nsfw (censored) etc. ☺️ basic dni criteria ! 17+ (unless we're already moots!) rt or like if u want to be moots <33

i hate how high my alc tolerance is since being fat, i used to only need one 10% can (4loko,clubtail) to get drunk nowadays it’s two😭 well two gets me DONE but yeah

being fat is hell

i wanna buy in bulk but lowkey i haven’t been able to lately so idk, ill buy enough for 4 days or so and then just unfortunately come back maybe on friday or Saturday

getting my alc finally tonight hopefully since it’s a monday night it’ll be slow and not a lot of ppl im so ready to be 21😭 it’s so embarrassing having to wait and then they get mad that im waiting so ppl don’t question???

i normally make food before work but lately i wake up early then eat then fall back asleep so i just don’t eat unless maybe some crackers

drunkorexics what do yall drink??

the concept of if i had no tips and i had shitty managers i would have to stay on shift for 2.13$ an hour… that’s not survivable

i need to get a new job soon bc this pay i can’t take anymore i cry after my shifts bc i work so much for so little it’s crazy how it’s legal i hate these labor laws 2.13 is NOT AFFORDABLE

they said i could go home and i was lowkey abt to bc i was hungover but said nvm i need the money and good thing i did i at least made 50$ (i used 11$ for gas)

didn’t get alc tonight bc i had to do smth else but at least i wont be broke having to use all cash😭 going tmrw (aka tonight it’s 12am)

i’m lowkey scared for my ed relapse lol i’m so huge now ik i can lose weight so fast if i just don’t eat but it’s hard

lowkey i’m getting alc face like ik im fat asf so u get chubbier but no my face is like extra round i noticed..

the only pic of me from my friends 21st party 😭 it was cold asf so there’s no pics of my outfit💔 and the lighting in the room was mid so my makeup and selfie is booty

my problem is i buy in bulk so then i don’t have to go to the store and waste gas.. but buying in bulk is pricy and takes a while especially if other customers come in lord

the fact i was holding up a line at the fucking vape store is crazy i don’t wanna go for a minute 😭😭

i get scared my guy is gonna stop selling to me bc i take too long and annoy him sometimes😔 but pls just hold on a couple more weeks pls until im 21

fuck that’s never happened to me like that i normally always have enough money at the store for my shit

my alc store is gonna lose so much money once i stop going there after i turn 21😭😭

i try to buy alc on weeknights bc it’s normally slower but tonight it was rlly busy.. in a couple weeks im 21 so he doesn’t have to worry, ill only go there if im in the area