Wreck || Tian Fei

I am asking you to be my final chapter. I am completely exhausted by the idea of having to rebuild from scratch with someone new, or trying to figure out how to understand another soul. I want us to make the active choice to stay together, especially when life becomes messy. When cracks begin to appear, we shouldn't run away; we should work to repair them. When we feel lost, we shouldn't shut down; we should communicate openly until we find our way back. I am not chasing some hollow, fairy-tale fantasy of "forever". I am choosing the real, grounded version of love the one that requires patience, unwavering loyalty, and showing up even when it is incredibly difficult. I want a life that is built through genuine effort, not just one imagined in dreams. It is not going to be easy, but I know in my heart it will be entirely worth it. There is no one else for me. I want you in every possible timeline and every version of reality. It has always been you, and it will always be you.

The more my thoughts linger on you, the more I seem to lose myself. The shiny, dark light in your eyes blinds me, yet you still ask me to gaze into them. I would gladly embrace blindness rather than disobey your request. A single touch of your lips sparks unthinkable, unspeakable thoughts that I never realized I was capable of having. When your hands hold mine, it feels as though we merge into one single body, with me becoming a part of your whole. You make me carry your scent whenever you wrap me in a hug. You leave your presence behind. You leave your mark. Slowly. Steadily. Please hide me safely in your arms. I have no separate identity of my own. There is only you. And I am entirely yours.