@winter___fall

allowing my identity to be emergent, not prescriptive

Joined December 2023
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also, for me it was really huge and meaningful to go speed dating for the first time! i debriefed for hours with multiple people already, and could still talk for more hours. but i compressed my experience into one tweet. how absurd
jack 🤍@winter___fall14h
i went speed dating yesterday. i found it fun to witness such a cursed context. being genuine was either unwanted or impossible. it just made me want to be socially online more instead
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fact checked: TRUE
universe sweetheart 💓🌈💭
@univrsw3th4rt20 Nov 2023
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if being yourself in public is hard, try being yourself in private first
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my 0 follower priv has been popping off lately. wish i could show u guys but it's uh. against the rules
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i went speed dating yesterday. i found it fun to witness such a cursed context. being genuine was either unwanted or impossible. it just made me want to be socially online more instead
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the opposite of a quitter is a beginner
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posting on my 0 follower locked alt is literally helping me so much, i've hit over 400 posts in about 4 days it is helping me differentiate between which expressions of mine i want to share and which i don't because sometimes i *need to express* yet don't want to be seen at all
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which is crazy. i had no idea the desire to express, and the desire to be seen, could be separated. i thought that needing to express meant i needed someone to see me i want both, i want to express and be seen, but i can really only take so much being seen at a time!
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and, the knowledge that my expression will be seen, can be a *huge* barrier to expressing what i really need to (for someone who is as scared to be seen as i am)
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it is so crazy to me that no one knows what my next tweet is going to be. you'd think i would know, but i don't
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i guess all i can promise is that it is going to be written by me. and actually, in the age where people don't even write their own tweets anymore, that is worth more than it seems
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water is a psychoactive substance that makes u feel better
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i've noticed a pattern with my reaction to notifications. they actually affect me so much it's crazy i'll post a lot of stuff that feels really true to me, and the next day at least one post will "do well". and i just stare at the notifs and get high instead of writing more
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i don't think i've been able to sustain more than 1 "good day" in a row of posting on this website, for this reason my account is small enough that if i go ~24h without posting anything, my notifications will go to zero. i've had to do this to clear my head enough to write
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because the feedback is real! i have to somehow process and metabolize it but... indulging to the point of getting completely hooked doesn't help the processing and metabolizing at all, it is actually counterproductive
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wow i changed my pfp, with the intention to just post more and think less, ...and then went ahead and spent tons of thought and effort writing a long ceremonious thread about it! and now i'm self-conscious ahahahah xitter.cf/winter___fall/status/2…
jack 🤍@winter___fallOct 8
hi i've changed my pfp on here! it's both a really really big deal and not a big deal at all i kinda want to write a thread about the change because i love indulging the past before stepping into the future
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hi i've changed my pfp on here! it's both a really really big deal and not a big deal at all i kinda want to write a thread about the change because i love indulging the past before stepping into the future
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my renewed intentions are to show up, post more (by removing the barriers to posting), stay connected with myself, not worry about an "audience" or the algorithm, give what i have to give
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so, all that to say, what my soul has been burning, desiring but never able to come close to uttering, what i have wished and yearned and died to be able to say to you: hi
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