Oniichan, it’s better not to let your suicidal thoughts show on the surface. Someone like you would probably try to sublimate feelings like that into writing too, right? Words harden as you keep writing them down. Someday, you might end up convincing yourself that suicide is the only option. People who announce that they’re going to kill themselves aren’t always doing it just because they want attention. Sometimes, they say it out loud because they want to make up their mind in a way that leaves them no room to turn back. Oniichan, you mustn’t die. Right?