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Found an amazing GP. She is actually taking me serious. Went to the neurologist today and He wants to rule out the possibility that I have Multiple sclerosis by doing an MRI on my head.
Impending doom has been killing me too. What about all the artwork that I could possibly never create? The stories I can’t experience?
If you’re a friend or close one of mine.. do not ask me if I’m doing better. The answer has been no for months, and just when I think it’s better, the next day it’s 2 times worse, I don’t see a future for myself where I’ll go back to what I used to be no matter how hard I try
Keep themselves moisturised. My heart is doing whatever it wants to atp. Pressure in my nose/ears. Feeling my pulse in my left butt cheek suddenly. Legs turning blue. Breathing out feels like I’m hitting a wall. Weird rashes, back pain, pain in general. And ontop of this all
The answer is always no. I don’t look like myself anymore, I wanna cry. I want my body back, I want my health back, I want the energy to do anything back. I’m constantly battling with the need to sleep, but then I lay down and my heart skips beats and my breathing turns bad.
I’m still alive. I haven’t gotten back to commissions yet at all. As much as I want to be happy and awake and socialise and work… I am at my limits. I’m genuinely convinced I am dying of something. My digestion is not working properly despite eating healthier. My eyes can’t
