wips should never be shown. the magic is in the process. the process is an act of prayer. leading me to matthew 6:6
"but when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.”
story time: when i was in psychosis i saw a UFO over my home. the weirdest part about it is that during that entire period i had no visual hallucinations. i am 100% sure i saw what i saw. here’s the story-
the way the light panned felt like it could’ve been a drone but one there wasn’t any noise and two the shape of the object was an oval with nothing obviously creating the hover. why would some advanced human tech be over my house? why would a ufo be over my house?
this art shit really almost killed me and thats not even an exaggeration. im not even sure why im even holding on anymore. realizing your success was mostly simulated by speculation of an emerging asset type is hard to sit with-
i probably couldve done things better if i wasnt high all the time id probably still be successful now but we'll never know. im so burnt out i barely do anything creative. im more lost than ive ever been but im also ok with it finally. its not as detrimental as it was before-








