Does it ever get easier? Every year seems to get harder. Challenges I could have never have conceived of facing. I could have never predicted that so soon we'd see a year of lockdown, AI, or culture continue to rot. All of those are easy enough to manage though. What's even harder to predict is how your own life can change instantly. I never thought a car running red light would land me unable to write code. There's something I think very few self help books talk about and that is what happens when your very ability to reason, make decisions, and execute fails. These books cannot and will not help you if you have had a concussion. They especially won't help you if you have severe seizures and you blame your inability to think during one as laziness. Atomic habits will not save you. The brain cannot and will not heal. People who say otherwise don't understand neuroscience. But there is a workaround, the brain can repurpose non damaged parts of the brain. It also can rewire itself. So how do you do that? Nobody really has a guidebook. There is no research paper I or grok can find with a magic protocol (sorry Dr. Huberman). So I'm faced with two choices. I can either accept that I will never be able to work a job again and mooch off everyone playing "chronically ill victim." Reddit's r/chronicillnness is full of that. Or I can attempt to retrain my brain to code. That is why I did the ARM64 assembly livestream without AI. And more will come. I will climb out of this hole. Just like we cannot predict the bad things that will happen we also cannot predict the good things that will happen. It is quite possible next month or even 2027 will be the best year of my life. But the only way to have good things happen to you is to stack the odds in your favor. You have to roll the dice a ton. Rn i've gotten a lot of bad rolls, but that is not going to stop me from rolling the dice even more.