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❤︎ updated #edtwt intro ❤︎ ✦ 03 she/her wlw ✦ — 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗼𝗿𝘀 𝗱𝗻𝗶 — bulimic gym rat — pro recovery ✦ sw 170.2lbs gw 115lbs ✦ ♡ / ↺ to be moots!

my metabolism never knows what’s coming… either starvation or a binge of 4593 calories

I’m tired.

having an ed takes up so much of my time and energy, like tell me why I’m calculating the calories on a single piece of lettuce…

when you eat fiber, hydrate like a camel, walk 10k steps, sleep 8 hours... and still are constipated

getting on tiktok for a laugh but every video is about food, weight, or working out

me at the grocery store looking for snacks with no sugar, 15 calories, and 30 grams of protein

losing weight is so addicting like wdym i get to watch numbers go down every week like a game

"you're so funny" thanks! i weigh myself first thing every morning after i pee, no clothes, no apple watch, and before a single drop of water touches my body

ed logic = skittles are safe but if someone puts sugar in my coffee I’ll crash tf out

how i look at my favorite foods ever since i learned about cals

this except instead of a ring it’s the bulimia bumps on the knuckles 💅

biggest fears: - fully recovering - never recovering

how i stare at my food knowing im gonna lift up my shirt and turn to the side in every mirror and feel uncomfortable for the whole day

third base is sharing my relationship with food