spider 🕷️ edtwt

🕷️🕸️ #edtwt intro ୨ৎ hi im spider ୨ৎ 2008 ୨ৎ high sw ୨ৎ pro recovery ୨ৎ priv @spiderrexix

new lw acquired after not being locked in basically all of 2025

im celebrating being 1year and 4months cutting free by ordering blades 🩷 healing era ended

if i actually want to kms i need to gather the courage to hang myself or jumping bc its way more likely to succeed then od but im scared of failing and getting brain damage or something similar

i get really sad when i see that i havent lost any weight but what can i expect atp

"wyd" biting myself and hitting my head repeatedly hbu !!

i convinced myself i looked so fat and had gained like 8kg finally got the courage to weight myself and i have gained 1kg .. actual delusion

i wish i could just be chill about anything ever

i have ruined my life i cant turn back now i dont know what to do

how it feels being forced to make decisions about ur life when all u want to do is die

i just want to die i cant do anything anymore im so useless and lazy

im freaking out crying about going to the dentist i wish i was normal im so scared to leave my house i just want to stay inside for the rest of my life

for like two weeks ive felt like im gonna puke halfway in to eating any meal its not a mental thing i just feel physically sick when i eat 😞

im under 65 kg again now i can feel like a human and not a disgusting creature

im so tired of living like this

my bmi is literally 20 why are they freaking out about my weight LEAVE ME ALONEEE ik i was fat a year ago and now im normal just let me live

tutorial on how to gain 3.5kg in 3 days pls my adhd medication is 100% gonna get taken away thursday im gonna kms

my doctor is trying to force me to maintain or gain weight or else they will take away my adhd medication they are just causing me to stress out about my weight i do not want to gain im eating relativly normal can they stop

threw up everything i ate yesterday bc i left my snus in to long is this the universes way of telling me i need to become bulimic LOL