lowkey really want something I can’t have and I can’t stop thinking about it. Is this what subs feel like when they’re denied? I don’t know how they do it.
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the sexual part is fun. The heavy kisses, the needy thrusts and the soft whines. The other part? the soft submission, the sweet devotion and constant yearning. The very act of wanting to belong them and feeling safe with them? It shatters me then makes me whole again.
Maren for halloween because my favourite thing I wrote and talked about this year was cannibalism as a metaphor for love and I will probably love that topic til my last day here on this floating rock.
number. To this day, it was the hardest thing I had to work on yet I remained devoted to it. Every spare thought led back to this only thing I wanted; this 2.731. Eventually one day, I would take a train to another city 4 hours away. Sit on a bench in silence for another 3
but when I hit page 57 and I needed a result of 2.731 in order for my final calculation to be correct. Which meant that I had to go back and recalculate essentially everything. I barely slept for 3 weeks and when I did, it was all I dreamt about. Each moment was consumed by this
we were talking about obsession today and I explained that my experience w it outside of a D/s context informed how I feel it with someone. Years ago I had a ‘final project’ with calculations that had to be done by hand. In the end I submitted 73 pages worth of calculations
🧵 “How to build the best D/s dynamic for long term relationships”
Based on observations, experiences and discussions.
Disclaimer: This obvs skew towards what I want and like but might be general enough.
1. Intimacy.
- Intellectual
- Emotional
- Physical.
9. Continuously learning about your partner outside of kink.
- Building a solid foundation
- going on dates
10. Health.
- check ups
- tests
- staying active ( however that may you look for you.)
- taking breaks.
kinda also have a tattoo chosen out for my sub. I really like it and I like my chosen placement for it.
I also spoke to a k*nk friendly therapist like a month ago and I mentioned some concerns I had with having a FLR and it was pretty cool to have her work through those concerns w me.
it’s actually concerning how easily bought I am by chocolate. I think might be because I haven’t had any since July.



