☦️ Former Evangelical Pastor Convert to Orthodoxy | Writer | Great Sinner | Ultimately, Just Some Guy with a Wife and Some Kids

Nashville, TN
Joined August 2025
Being a Christian on social media is unnecessarily difficult because the algorithm is never intelligent enough to know not to also serve up RC and Prot. content.
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I was grateful to hear this story from a friend recently, and wanted to share the quote from Metropolitan Philaret: “Oftentimes have I quoted the words of Saint Seraphim, and once again shall I mention them. Once there came to him a mother who was concerned about how she might arrange the best possible marriage for her young daughter. When she came to Saint Seraphim for advice, he said to her: “Before all else, ensure that he, whom your daughter chooses as her companion for life, keeps the fasts. If he does not, then 𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐧, whatever he may consider himself to be.” You see how the greatest saint of the Russian Church, Saint Seraphim of Sarov, a man who, better than we, knew what Orthodoxy is, spoke concerning the fasts?” - Metropolitan Philaret This succinctly captures the heart of Christian fasting.
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Hopeful that this reflection on proper Christian fasting will be of some benefit to the reader. lowlyherald.substack.com/p/m…
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Walking the narrow path of Jesus requires bodily discipline, bringing the physical appetites under control so that we can grow spiritually. Yet, in the very same text where he teaches this discipline, St. John Cassian warns: “And we should not believe that mere fasting from visible food can suffice for our perfection of heart and purity of body if a fasting of the soul has not also been joined to it.” Physical fasting is an essential Christian practice, but refraining from food accomplishes very little if we do not also abstain from sin. A true fast sets aside food, but it also casts off gossip, greed, anger, and pride. Fasting is never just about giving things up; it is about taking things on. We exchange our vices for love, charity, humble service, and mercy. When we turn away from sin and clothe ourselves in virtue, we empty our hearts of self-will and prepare a place for Christ to dwell within us.
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I'm so glad there are no German shepherd-sized praying mantises.
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Many people are quick to blame demons for their struggles and vices, or to claim they are actively engaged in spiritual warfare. Depending on who is speaking, this may or may not be true. St. John Cassian taught that true spiritual warfare is reserved for those who have already fought and conquered their own physical desires. Demons have little interest in fighting someone who is still clumsily stumbling over their own flesh and enslaved to basic vices. If a person cannot control their eating, love their enemies, or treat others with humility, they are not yet strong enough to face advanced spiritual trials. St. Cassian originally illustrated this point using the ancient Olympic games, as did the Apostle, St. Paul. To make this easier to understand today, we can compare it to a professional basketball player. A person cannot just walk off the street and play in the NBA Finals. Instead, a player starts at a young age and dedicates their life to the sport, spending countless days, nights, and weekends in the gym to hone their craft. They begin by competing on a junior varsity team. If they excel, they move up to varsity, and eventually to college basketball. The best college players advance to the NBA, where they endure a grueling season. If they perform well, they reach the playoffs, fight their way to the finals, and finally compete for the championship. Every step along that long road requires intense discipline, dedication, and sacrifice. Each advancement is earned entirely through hard work at the previous stage, and those who fail to compete well do not earn the right to move forward. The human soul follows the exact same path in the spiritual arena. If we have not yet fought and conquered our basic sins and physical passions, we have not truly progressed. We deceive ourselves with spiritual pride if we believe we are under heavy demonic attack, when in reality, we are just captive to our own everyday habits. Rather than shame or guilt that may further immobilize, the application of this reflection is that we may actually find relief by drastically reducing the scale of our immediate spiritual struggles. We may remove the terrifying burden of fighting advanced demonic forces and refocus our attention to simple, manageable daily tasks like temperance and basic humility. We can find comfort knowing that God does not permit the weary to face supernatural trials until they have steadily built the strength to handle them. So, let us begin with the unglamorous, foundational work of bodily discipline. Let us focus our energy on curbing daily excess, keeping the fasts, and loving our neighbors.
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Every Christian is called to be a theologian—not in the academic sense, but because every Christian is called to know God. We come to know Him not merely by reading about Him, but by living with Him in prayer, worship, repentance, and love.
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St. John Cassian said that Christ is "divided among each of the holy ones, member by member." This teaches us that true virtue is more than personal moral achievement. Every virtue is a partial manifestation of Christ at work in His saints. Holiness, then, is corporate before it is individual. The fullness of Christ is not revealed in any isolated ascetic. Rather, it is made manifest in the whole Body as its members are joined together in the unity of faith. There is no true spiritual individualism. You cannot possess the fullness of Christ apart from communion with the rest of the Church, because the virtues lacking in one member are often supplied by another. Or to say it more plainly: No saint contains the whole radiance of Christ. God has scattered His gifts throughout the Body so that we must learn humility from one, courage from another, and love from all.
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If I spent the day neglecting those given to me, I must enter the night prayers as a penitent. To stand before the icons otherwise is not piety, but self-deception.
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If we do the wrong thing, that is bad. If we know the right thing and still do the wrong thing, that is worse. We cannot expect that to go well for us.
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For years as a Prot., I bought into "easy believism." I thought salvation was just intellectual assent, nothing more. A big turning point happened during a Secret Santa gift exchange at my old Evangelical church. We had a guy there who was obsessed with N.T. Wright. He read everything Wright put out and brought him up in pretty much every theological chat we had. Sure enough, someone gifted him the latest Wright book. He was ecstatic. It was the perfect present. Then the night ended, he packed up to go home, and he completely forgot the book on the table. Not sure is this was just a random realization, or the Holy Spirit teaching me, but that moment stuck with me and I'll probably never forget it. Salvation is a totally free gift, just like that book. You can't earn it, and you don't deserve it. But what good is a gift if you just leave it behind? Or worse, you take it home and let it sit on a shelf gathering dust? To actually get anything out of it, you have to take it with you, open it up, read it, and actually live it. Salvation works the exact same way. God gives it to us freely, but we still have to actually take hold of it and live it out instead of walking away.
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Exterior ritualism without inner purity yields spiritual pride.
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Nominalism exists in every arena. When discerning or judging, go out of your way to compare the best of one position to the best of another.
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Orthodoxy is not a badge of heritage or a checklist of rules to brandish against others, but a hospital where precise doctrine and ascetic discipline serve one sole purpose: healing the human heart through active, self-sacrificing love.
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"Thaddeus, can you clearly state the orthodox position on why Christ died?" So the Bible uses a lot of metaphors for salvation. Ransom, running a race, fighting a fight. This language is biblical and we Orthodox use it. It isn't theories, and I kind of hate that word, because it implies a bunch of "possible" options and then one or a few may turn out to be true. It's atonement metaphors. St Gregory the Theologian in his Second Paschal Oration (4th century), one of the greatest theologians of all time, says that if you take the ransom language literally, you get heresy. Satan doesn't have that kind of power, and God isn't holding us hostage. It's a metaphor that means what was needed to free us from death was provided. Similarly, imagine reading "run the race" as literal and assuming salvation is a competition. It's absurd to squeeze every possible literal detail out of the words in Scripture. But the worst is "Penal Substitutionary Atonement" which says that justice = retributive punishment for sins, and thus God is obligated to be merciless, keep records of wrong, and relegates the heart to a secondary issue rather than primary. A person who cannot let any crime go without punishing someone is fundamentally not merciful. And letting guilty people go free because an innocent person volunteered to take their place is not justice. Justice is making things right, and God uses both retribution and mercy to make things right, and is not obligated to punish. (Justification of man means to make man how he should be.) So what is ACTUALLY going on? A variety of things, not "theories" or even metaphors but a variety of real things. 1. Physical death is defeated. In the time of the Apostles, people weren't worried about going to Hell for breaking God's rules. The enemy that oppressed them was death, and the Gospel centered around Christ trampling down death by death. The Fathers talk of how much death pushed people towards sin, and so a major incentive for sin was defeated along with defeating death itself. And death was defeated by having it filled with Life Himself. Anyone who dies now goes to be with Christ and will be resurrected on the day of judgment. (Being with Christ doesn't mean you like being with Christ or are "saved.") So to know death was defeated was a powerful message. 2. Spiritual death can be defeated. All sin comes from distance from God. He is love itself, beauty, the logos, the source and standard of all that is good. If we distance ourselves from Him, we do what is "right in our own eyes" and eventually we die. The life of the Christian in the Church opens the door to begin living in a way that reflects God, and the sacraments in the Church open a way to actually unite with Him through that transformation. And the death happens through death to the self as Scripture says, through taking up your crosses daily. (If the Cross was a once-for-all payment it would be extremely offensive to say now WE have to take up our crosses. Wasn't Christ's work enough? It was, but we have to participate in it, we have to walk through the door now that it's open.) 3. Union with God is possible. It was already a powerful message to know death was conquered, and even more to know that with God's help, evil within us can be conquered. But a step even above all this was that man is built to be "partakers in the divine nature", that he was made to be even closer to God than husband and wife. This is the message of the Ascension and Pentecost after the Resurrection, that humanity has united with divinity. Part of how we come intimately close to anyone is to have knowledge of them, which is why sexual intercourse is called "knowing" in Scripture. It is by the Cross that we come to know the basis of who God is, that He bears all our sins (not as legal payment but literally we sinned against Him in His Passion), and most of all when, after so much evil has been unjustly done to Him, He looks at them and says "forgive them Father, they know not what they do." That is a revelation of the incredible heart of God, the same heart we all fail in, and it is only by comparing ourselves to that heart do we repent, and by seeking to have that heart (by God's grace) that we can become close to Him and become like Him. Salvation is to be united with God, which comes through the defeat of physical death, the transformation of the heart into God's likeness, and above all, a deepening encounter with Him.
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Loved celebrating St. Elizabeth the New Martyr this weekend. Got to venerate her relics: some of her wrist bone kept in a small case that, when opened, gives off a fragrance. And got to drink Holy Water out of a teacup that belonged to her. Enjoyed other festivities like contra dancing and a water slide for the kids. Blessed and glorious day. St. Elizabeth, pray for us.
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I know next to nothing about SSPX; therefore, I will not comment on it.
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M wife said something last week that has stuck with me. I told her I had remorse for my past but not regret, because God used it all to bring me to Him. I would not go back in time and change it. It sounded wise. Maybe even holy. Thinking about her own past, she said she would rather go back in time; she'd rather have chosen Christ in the moment. I realized I wasn’t only protecting gratitude. I was protecting the life I love. What do I mean by this? 👇 Click below for my quick reflection on regret, remorse, and repentance, entitled “Would I Still Choose Christ?” open.substack.com/pub/lowlyh…
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Compassion will always be a Christian imperative, and it will remain a vital necessity for any thriving society. But the far-too-swung pendulum of toxic empathy has to be done with. Victimhood as a virtue must cease. Thankfully, it's looking more and more like that's happening. People are starting to catch on that endless baseless affirmation isn't love, and that telling someone the truth is often the kindest thing you can do.
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