This interview from @larisamlbrown is quite something. How one moment can define a lifetime Two decades ago Richard Jackson, then a high-flying civil servant destined for a notable career in public service, lost top secret documents containing intelligence on al-Qaeda and Iraq on a train The documents were found by a member of the public and passed to the BBC Jackson was charged under the Official Secrets Act, prosecuted, fined and demoted three grades He says he has never forgiven himself; that he had no excuses and that he deserved what happened; he accepts the process because it was by the book He subsequently suffered from clinical depression and once considered taking his own life. He says his wife, Maddie, saved him. 'I wouldn't be here without her' He has set up a coaching and wellbeing company called Newday, which aims to help others who handle sensitive or distressing information cope with the strain “I will probably never forgive myself for it [the loss of the documents]. I am, I guess, ashamed of it. But I have to move on. I went through a phase of not wanting to move on, that is why I do what I do now.” Following advice from a life coach, he has Post-it Notes next to his desk reminding him of all the positive things he has done “It does help, but in the back of my head I still have that voice going, you still left papers on the train. That is always there. Always.” thetimes.com/uk/defence/arti…