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Asking for prayers again for my wife. She's been in the hospital since Tuesday, 10/27. She had a major stroke on the right side of her brain causing paralysis on her left side. At the same time there was a smaller stroke on her left side of the brain with pinprick bleeding. I haven't slept more than 3-4 hours a night since Tuesday. She's out of the danger zone, but still paralyzed and her blood pressure is still spiking. I'm very scared I might lose my wife or that she'll never be able to walk and do things like she used to again. This all started in June of 2025 when I left Tesla, it triggered a major anxiety event in her. I was making good money at Tesla, enough for us to survive on and be okay and then suddenly I wasn't and that triggered an episode in her. I know that sounds crazy, but that's what happened. At the time I thought Elon Musk was acting really out of sorts with the whole Trump/Epstein thing and I felt I couldn't continue working there. That and I hated my job. I was begging for tech services for a year and they just kept me on the phones, which for a guy who likes to work with his hands and not talk to people was like psychological torture. So after I quit, she had kind of breakdown and I was unemployed for 6 months with nothing but savings to live on. She got so anxious she ended up in the ER with super high BP. Since then she's racked up over 100k in Emergency room debts and has been diagnosed with Anxiety Disorder and prescribed BP meds, and a host of psyche pills that didn't do anything to help her. Honestly, if I'd known how my quitting would have affected her, I absolutely would not have. At the time I had enough to cover expenses for at least 4 months and was going to find a good tech job, but with her health going down the tubes it turned into a chaotic nightmare. Fast forward to the other night, Monday, 10/27, she complained that her left hand was numb and weak. I thought maybe she slept on it wrong, or maybe was holding the phone too much. Hours and hours later, she said it was getting weaker. I took her to the emergency room. They determined it was probably a lack of B12. They ran a blood test but didn't do any CT scans in case it was a stroke. They're familiar with my wife and assume everything she says is just her anxiety talking, so they figured she was just freaking out over nothing and didn't bother to even consider a stroke. Although, they know she's on BP meds and her BP was something like 165/110 at the time. So Tuesday, when I got out of work I came home and saw she was slumped over and talking very slowly. She could not move her left arm and every time she tried to step forward her body turned left and almost fell. That's when I knew she was in big trouble. I called 911 had the ambulance come and take her in. I told the ER crew what happened. They saw it was her and just assumed it was anxiety again. So they stuck in her in a room and the hours kept going by. I persistently asked when she was going to get CT scans, they kept saying it's on the schedule. We went in at 3:45 PM on Tuesday, they did the scans close to 8 PM and that's when they realized she was having a major stroke. They rushed her to the ICU and by that time her whole left side was completely dysfunctional. I broke down in tears, this is all my fault after all. The next day they do the MRI. The doctor tells me, "Looks like the stroke started on Monday-" (when she went in with the numb and weak left hand) "-and now that we've seen the MRI it's worse then we thought. She's outside the window for any effective treatment, so we'll have to consider surgery or other options." I was wrecked. Here we are on Sunday, she's still in the hospital and her left arm is completely paralyzed. She's still out of it mentally. Her left leg has some function but she can't stand or walk. I need prayers for her recovery, please. I'm mad at the hospital for not doing the CT scan on Monday when she would have been in the window for immediate treatment that would have prevented brain damage. I'm mad at myself for quitting Tesla and causing her to have a major anxiety episode that led to this.