WITH THE PODCAST WE HAVE A FEW IN THE CAN.. not scheduling new ones right now... WE HAVE some good ones coming up

As I said, I'm going to finish my obligations of posting the last few podcast episodes we did. Out of respect to the guests, I will post them. After that, if I still use it, I don't know what will be on there. Anything else I promise somebody I will do as I promised. As I've said, I've been using this nickname for over 30 years, so I'm not changing that. However, here is my rant. Again, I'm not going to say any names. First of all, if you want to talk negatively and "go in" about somebody, please make sure they cannot hear what you're saying especially if you do it for over 15 minutes. Then, do not try to turn it around and say it's "positive criticism" when the person you're criticizing you don't know they can hear you and wasn't a part of the conversation. What bothers me the most about this situation is that I thought these two people in particular were close to me, and it hurt a lot it hurt deep. Continuing on, most of you saw me explode a few weeks ago in person. I had just hit my wit's end, and my nerves were so bad with all the BS stuff that a few people caught unnecessary strays and it was like, "Is Raw OK? Why is he being mean?" But others got what was directly on my mind, ie drama on the red carpet, where the people running the event had to come down and handle the situation. And I feel that no matter what, the person who handles the red carpets at certain events will have an issue with me in general because he works security at the majority of them. He has some built-up superiority complex, from how he treats people who were signed to them to how he treats a lot of people with what he does and says to them. And what they say to people in general. Even to the point where this person talks down to people and basically tells them they're not worthy to be in the industry. That's not his place to say. I can continue on. Even though this person says they were joking last year, I just did not feel like doing as much photography as I had in prior years, so I sponsored every show, mostly just to put my logo everywhere. I finally won an award, and the person last year vocally said to me, "Which one? When did you win? Because you paid for it." I let it slide. Then, this year, when they won one, I congratulated them, and they said back to me, "I didn't even have to pay for it." Again, this year I just sponsored each award show for my logo. Those three things happened just in August. I feel that everything I do in my life I sincerely work hard for it. & since one of the people they are around constantly degrades somebody publicly saying that they purchased everything and they don't necessarily deserve what they win it just made me think that that was just saying I was undeserving. And that hurt I'm not going to mention what happened a few years ago. Those who know, know. I almost left then. I just think I had hit a point where a lot of other things that were said basically took the fun out of everything. As I said, I probably just need a few months away. I've been around for almost two decades. I've had so much fun around everything, and I'm still going to be friends with my friends. I just have no events, no shoots, etc. But I'll still be here, and I'm not going to drag the industry. It's not in my character. It's just certain people have completely mind fucked me and to get me cursing and riled up. these are just three examples. But at the end of the day when something stops being fun you need to rethink it. Or just recoup yourself so if you ever come back to it it is fun again and that's what I think I need to do. So that's why I said a few months or for good. And for the record the party yesterday only one person knew I was leaving and when I sent the invite out it said Labor Day party. It wasn't until the day of that I told people what it really was. Because I've been the day I wanted people to enjoy themselves Someone said to me the other day that they started to see my frustration, & they even agreed it was time.

We having a bbq celebration. Thank u to those who help cook today. @Chris_Studds & @mizuno_sonata all but greens and slushies are done. My goal was 2. But heck those 2 will be v done in 10 min

When you wake up and had to make sure your pool was swimmable for the days shenanigans

So many of y'all have killed the fun of this shit

sooooooooooo who what we doing during the hurricane tomorrow

Soooooo looking at @cleomoontv tattoos yesterday. Yep i need a few more. Besides getting a Σ somewhere i need more leg tats. I am inspired now

LOL someone just said they would call me back in a "Frieza minute." oh goodness

Happy birthday @akaMrMarcus

Happy birthday @LivRevamped

Happy birthday @abijames3x

Some have been burnt completely and I dont get my hair wet so im not swimming