i deactivated and will be inactive due to harrasment. follow me on instagram @/sickenedbyholyhost and add me on discord @ blackimperialblood.

i am happy to say that i've been feeling a lot more better! two months of depressive episodes have been hard to deal with, but i am fighting it as hard as i can. my friends have helped me a whole bunch and i thank them every single day 💜

i didnt see this as i havent been active, but thank you for including pitaya! i am extremely grateful. thank you gaus. 💜🙏🏼

my children

i hate fake friends and people who will take advantage of you or mess with you. let this be a lesson for all of the people who think they're tough shit. you will push everyone away. there is a reason why you dont have friends outside of twitter and only a small circlejerk online.

"aait i see the button for socials… IM SO SAD DID U DEACTIVATE? or is twt js broken" i did deactivate, but only for a bit. i might do it again. i will also be more inactive and post occassionally. pitayau.straw.page

i will take a late shower and go to sleep, i probably wont be that active for a while. i need some time off

i need to get a sheet done or something. im sorry that i dont have much info about us, i get really anxious when i want to fill a sheet and i have to think of how ova dio would be. its like he's silently judging me in my mind when i do it!!!

ahh.. it would be simple, we'd probably be somewhere nice out in cairo. obviously, he wouldnt be eating anything and would have to watch me eat while we conversate, which is awkward.. but i wouldn't care 💕

i am not doing the interaction bait post from last week anymore due to fake niggas blocking me!!! i will do a new one soon though dont worry 😁

i need to put me first instead of worrying about what is essentially nothing. my health matters more than anything else. i need to love me 💜

i love my friends who are there for me. i wish i could give you all a big hug. thank you for understanding me & my feelings 🙂

i also wish it was more easier to express my feelings without worrying that id be making things worse. i worry that i might lash out and do/say something bad. is this valid? its not my fault for being a really emotional person but its annoying to control myself when im like this

i want to talk to somebody, but its always too late to do so when i feel melancholic. which also makes me worry; i dont want to go to a specific person all the time ONLY when i want to talk about how sad i feel. it would be nice to bring up another topic. it feels awkward if not.