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KIMBAL MUSK: "THE ROCKET LAUNCH WAS AT 4:00 PM. AT 2:30 PM ELON AND I WERE STILL AT DISNEYLAND"
september 28, 2008. spacex had 3 failed launches behind it. the 4th was the last shot. there was no money for a 5th.
the rocket was on an island in the middle of the pacific. the control room was a mobile home in a parking lot in la.
and the musk brothers went to disneyland with their kids. regular lines. no vip passes.
what happens in this clip:
→ 0:05 "literally as cheap as you can imagine"
→ 0:15 "my brother and i went to disneyland with our kids"
→ 0:34 the launch is at 4:00. it's already 2:30
→ 0:50 they get back a few minutes before liftoff
→ 1:08 "everyone just started crying"
→ 1:28 kimbal starts crying too
→ 1:42 "the last shot we had before we'd be out of business"
→ 1:47 a team of 500. boeing's version had 50,000
→ 2:13 "nasa saying okay, you deserve to live"
what actually got me is 0:34. they're checking their watches in a disneyland line while everything they own sits on one rocket.
kimbal calls it "a way to use up the day." when there's nothing left to fix, you just wait.
to be fair, falcon 1 flew only one more time after that. then spacex retired it.
3 months later, 2 days before christmas, nasa gave them a $1.6 billion contract.
i rewatched 1:08 three times. nobody cheers. they just cry.
the disneyland trip wasn't them being careless. it was 2 guys who had already done everything they could.
KIMBAL MUSK: "THE ROCKET LAUNCH WAS AT 4:00 PM. AT 2:30 PM ELON AND I WERE STILL AT DISNEYLAND"
september 28, 2008. spacex had 3 failed launches behind it. the 4th was the last shot. there was no money for a 5th.
the rocket was on an island in the middle of the pacific. the control room was a mobile home in a parking lot in la.
and the musk brothers went to disneyland with their kids. regular lines. no vip passes.
what happens in this clip:
→ 0:05 "literally as cheap as you can imagine"
→ 0:15 "my brother and i went to disneyland with our kids"
→ 0:34 the launch is at 4:00. it's already 2:30
→ 0:50 they get back a few minutes before liftoff
→ 1:08 "everyone just started crying"
→ 1:28 kimbal starts crying too
→ 1:42 "the last shot we had before we'd be out of business"
→ 1:47 a team of 500. boeing's version had 50,000
→ 2:13 "nasa saying okay, you deserve to live"
what actually got me is 0:34. they're checking their watches in a disneyland line while everything they own sits on one rocket.
kimbal calls it "a way to use up the day." when there's nothing left to fix, you just wait.
to be fair, falcon 1 flew only one more time after that. then spacex retired it.
3 months later, 2 days before christmas, nasa gave them a $1.6 billion contract.
i rewatched 1:08 three times. nobody cheers. they just cry.
the disneyland trip wasn't them being careless. it was 2 guys who had already done everything they could.
ELON MUSK'S MOM JUST SAID THE QUIET PART. HE WAS IN A COMA FIRST
2002. elon is 30. he just sold paypal and barely survived malaria. his mom maye was the one sitting next to him while he was in a coma.
what happens in this clip:
→ 0:08 "should i do rockets or electric cars or solar?"
→ 0:17 her answer: "you've worked so hard. just do one"
→ 0:22 "you see, he doesn't listen to me"
→ 0:33 family dinner. he goes quiet. everyone keeps talking
→ 0:41 "i think i can land rockets"
→ 0:45 "um, okay. what can you say to that?"
→ 1:08 "to see your child in a coma"
he took about $180M from paypal. roughly $100M went into spacex, $70M into tesla, $10M into solarcity. all 3 at once.
to be fair, she almost had a point. his first 3 falcon 1 rockets blew up. by 2008 he was close to losing everything.
what actually got me is 0:45. she laughs, but you can tell that was the exact feeling at that table.
dec 2015, the first falcon 9 booster landed upright. 13 years after "just do one".
i rewatched 1:08 three times. she doesn't talk about money there. only that he lived.
"just do one" wasn't bad advice. it was a mom who had just watched her son almost die.
WILL SMITH: "I'M SORRY MOM"
HE WAS 9. HE WATCHED IT FROM THE DOORWAY...
he has number one hits and box office records. he says a 9-year-old part of him still thinks he's a coward.
one night his dad punched his mom so hard she spit up blood. will was standing in the bedroom doorway. less than 10 yards away.
people pleaser = a kid who can't fight and can't run, so he keeps the angry person happy. so nobody gets hurt.
what he says in this clip:
→ 0:05 "nobody suffered more than my mother"
→ 0:13 he watched his father punch his mother so hard she spit up blood
→ 0:18 that moment "defined who i am today"
→ 0:32 his brother fought. his sister ran. he became a pleaser
→ 0:40 as long as his dad was laughing, they were safe
→ 0:55 his 9-year-old brain decided it was his fault
→ 1:26 "i was less than ten yards away... yet i did nothing"
→ 1:52 "that i'm a coward. that i failed"
→ 1:56 "i'm sorry, my mom. i'm so sorry"
what actually got me is that one of the funniest guys in america learned to be funny to keep his dad calm.
the fresh prince wasn't just a character. it was a job he started at 9.
i rewatched 1:56 three times. it's his own book, his own words, and it still sounds like he's saying sorry to her right now.
then the clip ends and his mom walks in. she read that chapter the day before. she told him a 9-year-old could not have done anything.
a kid who makes everyone laugh isn't always a happy kid. sometimes it's the only way he knows to keep the house quiet.
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SINCE CHILDHOOD HE LIVED IN FEAR... THE STORY OF ANDRE AGASSI
he won 8 grand slams. he says he never once chose tennis.
his dad built a ball machine in the garage and called it "the dragon". the goal was 2,500 balls a day. he was 7.
at 13 he was sent away to a tennis academy in florida. no parents. just other kids.
what he says in this clip:
→ 0:01 "i never chose tennis"
→ 0:10 page one of his book: he hated tennis
→ 0:17 "i saw what it did to my family"
→ 0:29 you're driven by 2 things. fear or love
→ 0:32 "it was fear of my father"
→ 0:40 the academy was "lord of the flies with forehands and backhands"
→ 0:46 "this place is a hell. i want to burn it down"
→ 1:21 tennis was "the thing responsible for the misery of my whole life"
→ 1:27 the only way out was to win
what actually got me is that he wasn't trying to be the best. he was trying to escape.
every trophy was a way out of the room his dad put him in.
i rewatched 0:32 three times. he says it so fast, like he's said it a hundred times and it still costs him something.
a kid who hits 2,500 balls a day out of fear isn't a story about a tough dad. it's what happens when a parent's dream gets a child's whole life as the price.
what did your parents push you into that you never chose?
SINCE CHILDHOOD HE LIVED IN FEAR... THE STORY OF ANDRE AGASSI
he won 8 grand slams. he says he never once chose tennis.
his dad built a ball machine in the garage and called it "the dragon". the goal was 2,500 balls a day. he was 7.
at 13 he was sent away to a tennis academy in florida. no parents. just other kids.
what he says in this clip:
→ 0:01 "i never chose tennis"
→ 0:10 page one of his book: he hated tennis
→ 0:17 "i saw what it did to my family"
→ 0:29 you're driven by 2 things. fear or love
→ 0:32 "it was fear of my father"
→ 0:40 the academy was "lord of the flies with forehands and backhands"
→ 0:46 "this place is a hell. i want to burn it down"
→ 1:21 tennis was "the thing responsible for the misery of my whole life"
→ 1:27 the only way out was to win
what actually got me is that he wasn't trying to be the best. he was trying to escape.
every trophy was a way out of the room his dad put him in.
i rewatched 0:32 three times. he says it so fast, like he's said it a hundred times and it still costs him something.
a kid who hits 2,500 balls a day out of fear isn't a story about a tough dad. it's what happens when a parent's dream gets a child's whole life as the price.
what did your parents push you into that you never chose?
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BEN AFFLECK (BATMAN) SWORE HE'D NEVER BECOME HIS FATHER. THEN HE DID
he watched his dad drink every day. then his own relapse went around the world.
0:12 → two trips to rehab in three years. married, three kids
0:17 → "i don't want my children to pay for my sins. to be afraid for me"
0:27 → "that's one of the hard parts of being the child of an alcoholic"
0:32 → "what if my dad gets drunk. what if he ends up on tmz and it's on my newsfeed"
0:38 → asked if he watched his own relapse video: "i saw a little bit"
0:53 → "i know what it looks like to be drunk. i don't need to watch anymore"
1:03 → his grandmother took her life amid alcohol and barbiturates. his aunt had an addiction. so did his father
1:14 → "my dad was drunk every day. that was just life"
1:22 → "i always said that'll never be me"
1:39 → "i never thought i was gonna get divorced"
2:01 → "it meant i wasn't who i thought i was"
what got me is the tmz line.
he's not scared of the drinking. he's scared of his kid scrolling past it at school.
an oscar, batman, millions in the bank. none of it stopped the thing he watched as a boy from walking into his own house.
that isn't a fame story. that's what it looks like when a family habit outlives the promise you made to break it.
i break down the craziest stories behind the money, so don't lose me.
BEN AFFLECK (BATMAN) SWORE HE'D NEVER BECOME HIS FATHER. THEN HE DID
he watched his dad drink every day. then his own relapse went around the world.
0:12 → two trips to rehab in three years. married, three kids
0:17 → "i don't want my children to pay for my sins. to be afraid for me"
0:27 → "that's one of the hard parts of being the child of an alcoholic"
0:32 → "what if my dad gets drunk. what if he ends up on tmz and it's on my newsfeed"
0:38 → asked if he watched his own relapse video: "i saw a little bit"
0:53 → "i know what it looks like to be drunk. i don't need to watch anymore"
1:03 → his grandmother took her life amid alcohol and barbiturates. his aunt had an addiction. so did his father
1:14 → "my dad was drunk every day. that was just life"
1:22 → "i always said that'll never be me"
1:39 → "i never thought i was gonna get divorced"
2:01 → "it meant i wasn't who i thought i was"
what got me is the tmz line.
he's not scared of the drinking. he's scared of his kid scrolling past it at school.
an oscar, batman, millions in the bank. none of it stopped the thing he watched as a boy from walking into his own house.
that isn't a fame story. that's what it looks like when a family habit outlives the promise you made to break it.
i break down the craziest stories behind the money, so don't lose me.
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In 1913 Andrey Markov counted the first 20,000 letters of Pushkin's Eugene Onegin by hand to win a fight with another mathematician. Pavel Nekrasov claimed the law of large numbers only works for independent events - and used it to argue for free will. Markov needed a sequence where every step depends on the last one and the averages still settle. The machine he built from that count is the exact object every LLM samples from when it picks the next token.
The mechanism is two numbers. In Onegin a vowel follows a vowel 12.8% of the time and follows a consonant 66.3% of the time. Run a chain on only those two odds and it predicts the book is 43.2% vowels - exactly what the count showed. Dependence doesn't break the law of large numbers. Shannon used the same chains in 1948 to generate fake English one letter at a time. An LLM is still a Markov chain, but its state is the whole context window: with a 100,000-token vocabulary and 128,000 tokens of context, the transition table would need 10^640,000 rows against 10^80 atoms in the universe. So the transformer learns a function that writes any row on demand. Markov's table had 4 numbers. The weights are what we pay for the rest.
The 1913 letter count that settled a fight about free will and became the engine of every chatbot.
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DESPITE BEING #1 ON THE FORBES LIST, ELON MUSK DOESN'T OWN A HOME... AND THERE'S AN EXPLANATION FOR IT
september 2026. someone posts about Musk's new living setup. his reply: "it's a nice airstream"
Gwynne Shotwell, president of Spacex, puts it plainly: "he sleeps on the factory floor"
people call it a stunt. he explained it on camera years ago
TED, giga texas. Chris Anderson asks: your net worth moves by billions a day, how do you handle that?
"i actually don't think about that too much"
what keeps him up is something else:
"every high quality minute of thinking is a million dollars" of impact on Tesla
"i was able to improve the financial outcome of the company by $100 million in a half hour meeting"
then the line nobody expects from the richest man alive:
"i don't even own a home right now"
"i basically rotate through friends' spare bedrooms"
"i don't have a yacht. i really don't take vacations"
the one exception is the plane. and even that he justifies in hours: without it "i have less hours to work"
it wasn't new either. in 2020 he tweeted he was selling almost all physical possessions. "will own no house". then he sold the LA mansions
napkin math, his own numbers:
1 good minute = $1M
1 hour = $60M
one week of vacation, 8 hours a day = ~$3.4B the companies don't get
so a house isn't a house. it's a commute. a yacht isn't a yacht. it's a week offline
and the hundreds of billions everyone screams about were never cash in his pocket. it's shares of Tesla and Spacex. you can't sleep in them
a man who prices his own rest in billions will never find a good enough reason to stop. the airstream isn't humility. it's the cheapest way to never leave work
Elon Musk's story is unbelievable
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JORDAN BELFORT'S (THE WOLF OF WALL STREET) INSANE ADDICTION THAT ALMOST ENDED IN TRAGEDY
he told this story on camera like he was describing a bad day at work.
quaaludes = a sedative banned in the us since 1984.
0:18 → he takes old quaaludes. thinks they're duds because they won't kick in
0:24 → drives out to make a phone call because he thinks his house phones are bugged
0:30 → everything hits at once. he drives home at 1 mile an hour
0:38 → thinks he made it without a scratch. police show up. car is totaled
0:42 → "to this day i can pass a lie detector test. i don't remember having an accident"
0:50 → the fight with his wife. he grabs his 3-year-old daughter
0:59 → drives the car straight through the garage door
1:12 → "i was on a 3-month bender. i thought aliens were coming through the window"
1:21 → "i was like, i don't have a problem"
1:27 → his daughter wasn't hurt. it was april 16th. the next day he got sober
what got me is the 1 mile an hour.
he was so far gone he thought driving like that meant he was in control.
a man running hundreds of millions couldn't tell he was destroying his own car.
and a day later he almost did worse with his kid in the seat.
that isn't a money story. that's what addiction looks like when nobody around you can say no.
i break down the craziest stories, so don't lose me.
JORDAN BELFORT'S (THE WOLF OF WALL STREET) INSANE ADDICTION THAT ALMOST ENDED IN TRAGEDY
he told this story on camera like he was describing a bad day at work.
quaaludes = a sedative banned in the us since 1984.
0:18 → he takes old quaaludes. thinks they're duds because they won't kick in
0:24 → drives out to make a phone call because he thinks his house phones are bugged
0:30 → everything hits at once. he drives home at 1 mile an hour
0:38 → thinks he made it without a scratch. police show up. car is totaled
0:42 → "to this day i can pass a lie detector test. i don't remember having an accident"
0:50 → the fight with his wife. he grabs his 3-year-old daughter
0:59 → drives the car straight through the garage door
1:12 → "i was on a 3-month bender. i thought aliens were coming through the window"
1:21 → "i was like, i don't have a problem"
1:27 → his daughter wasn't hurt. it was april 16th. the next day he got sober
what got me is the 1 mile an hour.
he was so far gone he thought driving like that meant he was in control.
a man running hundreds of millions couldn't tell he was destroying his own car.
and a day later he almost did worse with his kid in the seat.
that isn't a money story. that's what addiction looks like when nobody around you can say no.
i break down the craziest stories, so don't lose me.
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ELON MUSK: "I DON'T THINK MOST PEOPLE WOULD WANNA BE ME"... THE HARD LIFE OF ELON MUSK
this post was hard to write. this story made me stop and think
Lex Fridman podcast, november 2023. Lex asks what he's going through that people don't see
first he laughs it off. then:
"my mind is a storm"
"they may think they would wanna be me, but they don't know. they don't understand"
"do you get lonely?"
"sometimes"
"there are many nights i sleep alone. i don't have to, but i do"
then Lex brings up isaacson's biography and the childhood in it. beaten at school until his face was unrecognizable. a father his own brother calls "psychological torture". will he ever forgive?
"what is forgiveness?"
"i don't think i have a resentment, so nothing to forgive"
"holding onto grudges does not affect the future in a good way"
read that again. no anger. no closure. no "i'm still working through it"
just one test: does it move the future? no? drop it
that's either the healthiest thing you've ever heard or the loneliest
because a man who can't afford grudges probably can't afford a lot of other feelings either. rockets, cars, ai, 24/7. the storm never gets a day off
everyone wants his money. almost nobody would take his head with it
the richest man on earth, sleeping alone by choice, and not even angry at the man who made him this way
would you trade places with him?
good on that other mom for speaking up. paregoric was opium based and it was handed out for babies for decades like it was nothing
that's almost exactly perry's story. something to make a kid sleep, and then decades of not sleeping without it. sorry you had to carry that so long
thank you for sharing that, it's not easy to say out loud. kaolin and morphine on the kitchen shelf says a lot about how normal it all was back then
"mom said it was all good" and "the doctor said just give him this" are the same sentence, 40 years apart
could be. that's what makes it hard to judge. it probably did solve the problem that month, the bill just came later
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THE SADDEST MOMENT IN ANY ELON MUSK INTERVIEW. HIS EYES SAY IT ALL
while i was making this post, i could barely hold back tears
march 2012. Musk is 40. his first 3 rockets blew up, and he almost lost everything on the 4th.
then 60 minutes asks him about his heroes.
Neil Armstrong = first man on the moon. Gene Cernan = the last one. both told congress private rockets like his were a bad idea.
what happens in this clip:
→ 0:01 the question lands
→ 0:15 "i was very sad to see that"
→ 0:24 "those guys are heroes of mine"
→ 0:39 "to see them casting stones in your direction?"
→ 0:43 one word. "difficult"
→ 0:52 he admits he hoped they'd cheer him on
what actually got me is the 7 seconds after "difficult". he looks away. he swallows. he doesn't say anything.
to be fair, Armstrong later wrote to cbs. he said they cut his words too hard. he wanted to encourage the newcomers.
2 months later dragon reached the space station. 9 apollo astronauts signed a photo of his rocket for him.
i rewatched 0:43 four times. a billionaire, and he can barely get one word out.
that clip isn't about a rich guy getting criticized. it's what it looks like when the people who made you dream say you're wrong.
i think his heroes would be proud of him now