briar | one year binge free

;You're dreaming into something ; Wake up, feeling bleak

I want to binge it’s been long since the urge has been this strong

I think I’m skipping meds today I don’t have many left :( and I’m scared that if I take them normal I will somehow have something happen that will make me run out before I can get new ones

13k steps for now and all I ate is a cheese and ham pretzel

Can I control myself if I get some cookies

I still haven’t decided where I should go

I think I’ll soon go on a walk to my spot so that I can sit and smoke while it’s bright and I can go shopping while it’s dark so I have the best of both worlds yk

Do I buy snacks today 😵‍💫 right now I have no appetite but later I know I’ll want something and it doesn’t even have to be smth unhealthy I’m thinking of getting fruit or something

Gehe ich Edeka oder Rewe Ich weiß nicht ob Edeka die sachen hat die ich brauche und der weg zu Edeka hat keine aschenbecher

I want chicken nuggets so bad and technically I could allow myself to have some but I don’t want to walk to the store

I can’t eat macadamia I’ve had that for breakfast the past three days and I always felt sick

Ich will Döner omg

Do I go on a walk so that I get my steps in I am really tired don’t even want to smoke rn and I lowkey am hungry and should do something for class

I don’t know what to eat for breakfast and when

I feel unprepared for tomorrow and the problem is that I AM unprepared

I want a cig

I am really sad and angry and there’s nothing I can do because I need to do things

I am pacing around instead of doing something for uni because I feel guilty about what I ate today 🙏