I honestly don’t know what to post anymore. I took a break from X because I felt completely lost. I know many creators have already lost hope and stopped posting here. I don’t even know what to tell you all anymore. I can’t keep telling everyone to “stay strong” and “don’t lose hope” when I’m struggling to do the same myself. YouTube taught me a very painful lesson by terminating my channel. I don’t know if I will ever get my channel back. I’m tired of reposting, commenting, tagging and asking for help. Sometimes it feels like a complete waste of time because nothing changes. When I was a child, my parents told me something I never forgot: you can wake someone who is sleeping, but you cannot wake someone who is pretending to sleep. That is exactly how this feels with YouTube. They know creators are hurting, but it feels like they are choosing not to hear us. We keep speaking, and they keep ignoring us. I don’t know what else we can do to make them listen. My Silver Play Button is still hidden in my closet. I still can’t bring myself to look at it because it reminds me of everything I lost. 💔 I’m exhausted. I wish I could say I’m still positive, but honestly, I’m not. Maybe one day I’ll get my channel back. Maybe I won’t. I genuinely don’t know anymore. I just wish there was still some humanity in this process. @TeamYouTube