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Rover truly is the most powerful character in Wuthering Waves and it's not even close.
Why? Because bro basically possessed Hsin's body and didn't think of looking down for even a split second.
Meanwhile the first opportunity I get I am like
Yes, it is definitely the W-Engine being showcased here
Plume of Rebirth W-Engine Showcase
The "Plume of Rebirth" Signal Search event is about to begin! After the Version 3.3 update – 2026/11/11 11:59 (server time), reception rate for the limited S-Rank W-Engine Plume of Rebirth (Anomaly) is boosted!
*In development. Actual effects will be based on the official release version.
#zzzero #zenlesszonezero
#Phoenix
Whenever I return to Wuthering Waves, one of the first things I always do is replaying the Lorelei Echo Challenge.
One of the best experiences I had in gaming.
It doesn't look like much from the outside. It's not really challenging either.
Flying with Lorelei herself like this on her own invite, with no words said, is just memorable in and on itself.
OK, so, my biggest complaint so far as a returning Wuthering Waves player is not even the power creep anymore.
It's the damn lack of a proper training mode.
While newer characters are strong enough to brute force things with your brain turned off, this is not the case for older characters at all. You need to play them right, and that often involves insane levels of quick swapping at the exact right moment without fucking it up. They're strings of combos not much different from actual fighting games at this point.
But guess what? WE CAN LOBBY IN FIGHTING GAMES.
I CAN'T LOBBY IN WUWA. WHY? WHY CAN'T I LOBBY IN WUWA? JUST LET ME LOBBY IN WUWA GODDAMMIT KURO
Hey guys, I am opening one emergency commission slot.
Still got commissions I need to finish first, so it might take a couple of weeks until I can get properly started on this one, but I am in a situation where I can't avoid it.
I had enough funds to last until the end of the month, so I figured I could finish everything in time, but alas, I got hit with some pretty high medical bills this week.
For context:
All the stress I went through these past few months made me very physically and emotionally weak. I have very raw emotional breakdowns very frequently, often while I am drawing, so it slows down my progress a LOT. In fact, it happens almost every time I draw. Still, I need to force myself to keep going. I can't stop, I need the money and I need to deliver the art my clients entrusted me to deliver.
But these feelings are so overwhelming they make me physically ill. I have a constant migraine now that never passes. It feels like someone hit me in the back of the head with a bat. I get dizzy just by moving my eyes around, and the only reason I don't throw up all the time is that I can't really bring myself to eat much anymore anyway lmao
So yeah, if you're willing to put up with me, please consider commissioning me.
It's probably the last commission slot I will open in a while.
I don't know what will happen after I finish all commissions. What I know is that my focus is to finish them as fast as I can, and deliver them with quality. Even if I have to completely sacrifice my health for it. What happens next is for my future self to worry about.
That does mean I will need those meds/hospital funds tho lol so yeah.
Sorry for the wall of text tho D:
I feel like I am preparing myself for a master's degree or some shit
OK, so, my biggest complaint so far as a returning Wuthering Waves player is not even the power creep anymore.
It's the damn lack of a proper training mode.
While newer characters are strong enough to brute force things with your brain turned off, this is not the case for older characters at all. You need to play them right, and that often involves insane levels of quick swapping at the exact right moment without fucking it up. They're strings of combos not much different from actual fighting games at this point.
But guess what? WE CAN LOBBY IN FIGHTING GAMES.
I CAN'T LOBBY IN WUWA. WHY? WHY CAN'T I LOBBY IN WUWA? JUST LET ME LOBBY IN WUWA GODDAMMIT KURO
Now that I am slowly returning to my activities, I decided to revisit some gachas to get some inspiration for art, but the returning player experience is... something.
*Wuthering Waves's power creep is so absurd that most older characters should probably be removed from the game to save space on my SSD, and the new characters need such a specific team composition that if you lose one 50/50 you might as well not pull at all and save everything for 4.0 characters. My Aemeath is still just like a pretty daughter that I don't have high hopes for, because I don't have Mornye, so my Aemeath is more like the child version of her. Hells, even my fully stacked Cartethya suffers quite a bit now. Lucy and Rebecca are... characters, I suppose. They exist. They're there.
*Honkai: Star Rail is very similar. If you don't have Yaoguang, you might as well ignore Elation entirely, cause she is pretty much mandatory in every Elation team. At least the collab characters are strong enough to make up for it. They can keep up with the Elation characters, and their banners being eternal makes them a great and safe investment. Plus, opening the game and looking at Tohsaka Rin's face makes me feel things, and it almost makes me forgive the game. Almost.
*Zenless Zone Zero is... fine, I guess? Building characters is awful though. You absolutely need stacked Drive Disks, specially if you don't have signature W-Engines, and farming for them is quite miserable. Kinda sucks that if you don't have the ideal setups, your execution needs to be absolutely flawless to even get a chance of clearing endgame stuff. Don't get me wrong, love me some challenge and I appreciate needing to have skill to clear stuff, but at least make restarting the combat faster, you know?
The buffs they give to older characters (and how frequent they are) is awesome tho. Sure, there is still the issue of some characters needing specific teammates, but at least my wife Jane Doe can still keep up with newer characters, so as far as I am concerned, I WILL be making ZZZ fanart.
*Limbus Company is still the GOAT of gachas. None of that is an issue. Need a character? JUST BUY IT FROM THE STORE. NO REAL MONEY REQUIRED. Sure, you can't purchase the characters from the previous version, but I guess they had to add SOME sort of limitation to incentivize pulling. Still not an issue cause the game's version is often shorter than the time it takes for other games to have banner reruns anyway. Will definitely spend money on it again in the future tho, when I am not absolutely broke lmao cause I don't spend money on gachas because I feel forced to, I do it to support games that I feel respect me, my time and my money. Never made fanart, but I might just make some now.
My biggest disappointment so far is really Wuthering Waves, though. I was expecting HSR to head in this direction, so while it sucks, I can't be disappointed in HSR. I expected better of WuWa tho. Still gonna try it a while longer, if I manage to get Hsin and Suoming at least. I like the characters' designs, but I ain't gonna make fanart of it.
While wallowing in depression, one of my very few sources of joy and laughter was this stupid ugly face. Thanks, Lloyd 🙏🏻
Now that I am trying to return to my activities, I figured I could start sharing my incredibly objective and always correct statements (not opinions, I only say straight facts):
Just imagine this: you love this girl a lot, but you did something horrible to her, you literally broke her heart so bad she was depressed for years. Then, years after that, she is married and happy, but her husband is dying and just went through hell trying to find a cure for him, all for nothing. You show up again in one of her worse moments asking her to be your girlfriend. She rightfully tells you to fuck off, but you don't undersrand why, so every time you see her again after that, you just punch her in the face with all your strength, then after years of doing just that (and somehow avoiding jail— congrats on that btw, that's truly impressive), you die saving her from a random accident and then your friend tells her: "uhm, actually, the only reason he brutally beat the shit out of you all this time is because he loved you so much and breaking your nose every time he saw you wasting away in depression was the only way he knew how to show you just how much he cared about you! I was totally fine with that btw!"
It's absurd, right? THAT'S WHAT SHE DID THO.
Absolutely everything Eris could've possibly done wrong, she did. She is the sole responsible for her relationship with Rudeus going so tragically wrong, and the only reason she can be with Rudeus on the main timeline is because he literally had to invent time travel and use that opportunity to try to fix her massive streaks of fuck ups himself, not even for him himself to enjoy it, but another version of him.
We can stand here all day saying "aw she just doesn't have communication skills", but at the end of the day, it is her own fault. She never, ever tried to place herself in his shoes. She never tried to think how she would feel if Rudeus did the same to her, and to top it off, she shows up in one of the worst moments of his life, like nothing happened, telling him to marry her? Like, wtf?
And to top it off, instead of apologizing, after seeing him going through hell, all she did was to get on his way, fighting him at every moment she could, to such an extreme it made Rudeus think she was an agent of the Man-God. You need to be incredibly fucked up in the head to think any of this is acceptable behavior, and even more so to make me defend Rudeus of all people, cause he is a fuck up machine. Nay, a Fuck up-God.
And don't get me started on Ghislaine just going along with all that bullshit like "yep, that's my Eris for you haha so silly her, go guuurl"
Update on my situation o/
Took me a while longer to manage to get back to work, had a lot of things to solve that I couldn't before due to the health consequences of all the stress I was going through, but I am managing to get back slowly.
I've been doing some quick sketches to get back into shape, so it might still take a while until I can manage to get proper art posted again.
I have been writing, though. Since I had to stay on bed for long periods of time, I decided to start writing the stories I couldn't find time before. As a result, I have a few chapters ready and that I intend to start publishing soon.
I will start publishing them as Light Novels/Webnovels, and later on adapt them to webtoon.
The first story I will start publishing is a slice of life/comedy/drama about a depressed man who wants to die, and a reaper who can't kill him.
Aster lives in a city that started to crumble due to the sudden apparition of a black hole-like anomaly right in the middle of it, that sometimes swallows everything nearby, and sometimes spit otherwordly objects and creatures.
It is also the story about Ira Inaya, or simply Ina, a reaper who was tasked by her mother, Death herself, to observe the daily life of Aster in secret.
Ina does not know why her mother would order such thing, but she accepts it regardless.
Still didn't choose a title tho. I've been thinking if I should honor the tradition of long titles in light novels. Something like "I wanted to die but Death doesn't want to kill me and now there is a reaper stalking me instead"
Surely this is a good title
First of all, I'd like to say that I am starting to feel quite a bit better. Still recovering from an awful case of flu I got, got destroyed for 2 weeks somehow, but mentally and emotionally I am doing a lot better.
Second of all, sorry to my Japanese fans, but
GO BRASILLLL 🇧🇷
Gonna do some quick fanarts this week to get back in shape and return to my commissions. See you guys later ❤️
An update on my current situation:
I've been getting a lot of medical treatment and trying to better myself in many ways. It's not been easy, some days I can't leave my bad at all, but I am doing my best.
Thanks to all the donations, we did manage to get around 500-600 USD. This helps me stay afloat a lot, so thank you everyone who donated.
Still, the medical bills are piling up, so if you can leave a dono or support me on Patreon, I'd greatly appreciate it.
So far I focused on my psychological and emotional conditions, visiting a psychiatrist and a psychologist. I'm also trying take more care of my appearance. I've been going to the gym since January, but other than that, I didn't really worry much about how I look. I always worry about how I smell tho, gotta smell divine at least.
Did a blood test a couple days ago and the nurse was even happy that my veins were visible lmao I know it's silly and just a nurse thing, but it made me happy anyway, because I know it's proof of my effort.
I dedicated myself so much to others all this time, it's time I dedicate a little bit of myself for my own well being.
My hands still shake a lot though. Didn't expect to take this long to recover from that. I can barely write my name and writing this is taking so long, I've been trying to write this post since the blood test thing lmao I feel like an old man trying to pressing one button at a time.
I hope I can recover my dexterity soon, probably gonna need another week or two if things stay like this. I'll try to do some doodles to see if it helps, so I might share them here.
Once again, thanks for all the support and messages. I love you all. Really, thank you for helping me stay afloat so far.
If you want to help out, a little dono on kofi or supporting me on patreon will do. Don't force yourself to tho, take care of yourself first!
See ya all in a few days ❤️
Oof... it's been a while since I did one of these, but... guys, I need your help.
Tl;dr: I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for almost two weeks. A lot of awful stuff happening in my life that are stopping me from working, and I would really, really appreciate it if you guys could support me on patreon or leave donations on kofi, You can find the links on my profile.
Full story:
Life has been a huge mess for me for the longest of times now. But lately I've really reached rock bottom. A lot of stuff happened on my personal life, and I simply couldn't handle the pressure anymore. Having to be the sole provider for my mom who is 70 years old, and my 47 years old sister (she is almost 20 years older than me) who has fibromyalgia, the constant conflicts, my severe ADHD and the fact that I don't have anyone to share the weight of everything with... or, worse, the only person I thought I could count on abandoning me when I needed her the most... it's too much for me to handle.
I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for the past week and a half. I lost pretty much all the dexterity on my hands and fingers because almost every time I have a panic attack my hands and fingers lock up. I started the medication, but it leaves me very apathetic, to the point of staring at the wall for many minutes many times a day. My body is completely exhausted from the constant release of adrenaline and cortisol, everything hurts so bad and the fatigue is so severe I feel like I will never feel rested again. I have so many commissions to finish and I feel awful just thinking about having to make my clients wait even more than I already did, but I am just so done with life.
I am completely alone and lost. I don't even have the energy to feel desperate anymore. I don't have have anything left, and the only person who gave me strength to keep pushing just abandoned me the first time I really collapsed, all while I did everything in my power to help her with her owns crisis. I feel truly ashamed. I feel stupid, useless, and undeserving of love. I truly reached rock bottom.
Yet I don't really want to give up, so I am coming here now to ask for you guys' help.
At this rate, I can't work at all, so while I hate asking for help, and I don't feel like I deserve anything, I am still gonna ask for you. I'd usually try to offer something in return at least, but this time I can't promise anything. Not right now, at least. But I would appreciate if you could help.
You don't need to help if you can't afford it, think about your own well being first, ok? I am just an artist, and just one more person struggling in life. I am no more deserving of life or comfort than any of you, but if you ever enjoyed my work, and wouldn't mind enjoying it more in the future, even a single dollar helps.
Life is hard, man. Being alone sucks. Everything is painful, and there isn't a single moment of peace. I am truly, completely exhausted, like never before, but like I said, I don't want to give up. I want to keep hoping I will find any shred of happiness in the future.
And it make me happy if you could help me get me back on my feet for that.
I need to sleep right now, though. I am completely out of energy, so I might have a hard time replying to anyone, but don't take it personally. All I can promise is that I will try my best to reply.
Thank you for all your messages and support, guys. Every 100 dollars allow me to stay afloat for another week, and so far I think we reached something like 150 USD.
It's a painful period of my life, and being abandoned by the person you dedicated so much of yourself to when you need her the most on top of all of that is really the worst.
I guess being a man really just means you have no value at all if you can't carry everything on your shoulders without ever breaking, huh?
Oof... it's been a while since I did one of these, but... guys, I need your help.
Tl;dr: I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for almost two weeks. A lot of awful stuff happening in my life that are stopping me from working, and I would really, really appreciate it if you guys could support me on patreon or leave donations on kofi, You can find the links on my profile.
Full story:
Life has been a huge mess for me for the longest of times now. But lately I've really reached rock bottom. A lot of stuff happened on my personal life, and I simply couldn't handle the pressure anymore. Having to be the sole provider for my mom who is 70 years old, and my 47 years old sister (she is almost 20 years older than me) who has fibromyalgia, the constant conflicts, my severe ADHD and the fact that I don't have anyone to share the weight of everything with... or, worse, the only person I thought I could count on abandoning me when I needed her the most... it's too much for me to handle.
I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for the past week and a half. I lost pretty much all the dexterity on my hands and fingers because almost every time I have a panic attack my hands and fingers lock up. I started the medication, but it leaves me very apathetic, to the point of staring at the wall for many minutes many times a day. My body is completely exhausted from the constant release of adrenaline and cortisol, everything hurts so bad and the fatigue is so severe I feel like I will never feel rested again. I have so many commissions to finish and I feel awful just thinking about having to make my clients wait even more than I already did, but I am just so done with life.
I am completely alone and lost. I don't even have the energy to feel desperate anymore. I don't have have anything left, and the only person who gave me strength to keep pushing just abandoned me the first time I really collapsed, all while I did everything in my power to help her with her owns crisis. I feel truly ashamed. I feel stupid, useless, and undeserving of love. I truly reached rock bottom.
Yet I don't really want to give up, so I am coming here now to ask for you guys' help.
At this rate, I can't work at all, so while I hate asking for help, and I don't feel like I deserve anything, I am still gonna ask for you. I'd usually try to offer something in return at least, but this time I can't promise anything. Not right now, at least. But I would appreciate if you could help.
You don't need to help if you can't afford it, think about your own well being first, ok? I am just an artist, and just one more person struggling in life. I am no more deserving of life or comfort than any of you, but if you ever enjoyed my work, and wouldn't mind enjoying it more in the future, even a single dollar helps.
Life is hard, man. Being alone sucks. Everything is painful, and there isn't a single moment of peace. I am truly, completely exhausted, like never before, but like I said, I don't want to give up. I want to keep hoping I will find any shred of happiness in the future.
And it make me happy if you could help me get me back on my feet for that.
I need to sleep right now, though. I am completely out of energy, so I might have a hard time replying to anyone, but don't take it personally. All I can promise is that I will try my best to reply.
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Oof... it's been a while since I did one of these, but... guys, I need your help.
Tl;dr: I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for almost two weeks. A lot of awful stuff happening in my life that are stopping me from working, and I would really, really appreciate it if you guys could support me on patreon or leave donations on kofi, You can find the links on my profile.
Full story:
Life has been a huge mess for me for the longest of times now. But lately I've really reached rock bottom. A lot of stuff happened on my personal life, and I simply couldn't handle the pressure anymore. Having to be the sole provider for my mom who is 70 years old, and my 47 years old sister (she is almost 20 years older than me) who has fibromyalgia, the constant conflicts, my severe ADHD and the fact that I don't have anyone to share the weight of everything with... or, worse, the only person I thought I could count on abandoning me when I needed her the most... it's too much for me to handle.
I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for the past week and a half. I lost pretty much all the dexterity on my hands and fingers because almost every time I have a panic attack my hands and fingers lock up. I started the medication, but it leaves me very apathetic, to the point of staring at the wall for many minutes many times a day. My body is completely exhausted from the constant release of adrenaline and cortisol, everything hurts so bad and the fatigue is so severe I feel like I will never feel rested again. I have so many commissions to finish and I feel awful just thinking about having to make my clients wait even more than I already did, but I am just so done with life.
I am completely alone and lost. I don't even have the energy to feel desperate anymore. I don't have have anything left, and the only person who gave me strength to keep pushing just abandoned me the first time I really collapsed, all while I did everything in my power to help her with her owns crisis. I feel truly ashamed. I feel stupid, useless, and undeserving of love. I truly reached rock bottom.
Yet I don't really want to give up, so I am coming here now to ask for you guys' help.
At this rate, I can't work at all, so while I hate asking for help, and I don't feel like I deserve anything, I am still gonna ask for you. I'd usually try to offer something in return at least, but this time I can't promise anything. Not right now, at least. But I would appreciate if you could help.
You don't need to help if you can't afford it, think about your own well being first, ok? I am just an artist, and just one more person struggling in life. I am no more deserving of life or comfort than any of you, but if you ever enjoyed my work, and wouldn't mind enjoying it more in the future, even a single dollar helps.
Life is hard, man. Being alone sucks. Everything is painful, and there isn't a single moment of peace. I am truly, completely exhausted, like never before, but like I said, I don't want to give up. I want to keep hoping I will find any shred of happiness in the future.
And it make me happy if you could help me get me back on my feet for that.
I need to sleep right now, though. I am completely out of energy, so I might have a hard time replying to anyone, but don't take it personally. All I can promise is that I will try my best to reply.
Oof... it's been a while since I did one of these, but... guys, I need your help.
Tl;dr: I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for almost two weeks. A lot of awful stuff happening in my life that are stopping me from working, and I would really, really appreciate it if you guys could support me on patreon or leave donations on kofi, You can find the links on my profile.
Full story:
Life has been a huge mess for me for the longest of times now. But lately I've really reached rock bottom. A lot of stuff happened on my personal life, and I simply couldn't handle the pressure anymore. Having to be the sole provider for my mom who is 70 years old, and my 47 years old sister (she is almost 20 years older than me) who has fibromyalgia, the constant conflicts, my severe ADHD and the fact that I don't have anyone to share the weight of everything with... or, worse, the only person I thought I could count on abandoning me when I needed her the most... it's too much for me to handle.
I've been having panic attacks almost everyday for the past week and a half. I lost pretty much all the dexterity on my hands and fingers because almost every time I have a panic attack my hands and fingers lock up. I started the medication, but it leaves me very apathetic, to the point of staring at the wall for many minutes many times a day. My body is completely exhausted from the constant release of adrenaline and cortisol, everything hurts so bad and the fatigue is so severe I feel like I will never feel rested again. I have so many commissions to finish and I feel awful just thinking about having to make my clients wait even more than I already did, but I am just so done with life.
I am completely alone and lost. I don't even have the energy to feel desperate anymore. I don't have have anything left, and the only person who gave me strength to keep pushing just abandoned me the first time I really collapsed, all while I did everything in my power to help her with her owns crisis. I feel truly ashamed. I feel stupid, useless, and undeserving of love. I truly reached rock bottom.
Yet I don't really want to give up, so I am coming here now to ask for you guys' help.
At this rate, I can't work at all, so while I hate asking for help, and I don't feel like I deserve anything, I am still gonna ask for you. I'd usually try to offer something in return at least, but this time I can't promise anything. Not right now, at least. But I would appreciate if you could help.
You don't need to help if you can't afford it, think about your own well being first, ok? I am just an artist, and just one more person struggling in life. I am no more deserving of life or comfort than any of you, but if you ever enjoyed my work, and wouldn't mind enjoying it more in the future, even a single dollar helps.
Life is hard, man. Being alone sucks. Everything is painful, and there isn't a single moment of peace. I am truly, completely exhausted, like never before, but like I said, I don't want to give up. I want to keep hoping I will find any shred of happiness in the future.
And it make me happy if you could help me get me back on my feet for that.
I need to sleep right now, though. I am completely out of energy, so I might have a hard time replying to anyone, but don't take it personally. All I can promise is that I will try my best to reply.
