penelope of ithaca

❝ She’s my everything , Penelope of Ithaca. loving mother , loyal wife . the queen of ithaca, smarter than you know . nsfw / semi - selective portrayal of #authoredbyaries My Penelope . ❞

us both, if only the gods hear.

she wanders through palace halls late a night. slips into darkened passageways that ody had showed her years before, and finally escapes onto sodden fields. slipping her sandals off as bare feet embrace the whispy grass. as her toes sink into the wet dirt. she’s missed this.

“ than the lot you’ve received in life , my little one . I only wish I could have . . . done better for you . ”

“ given the chance to be the boy you could have been . To not have the chance to grow with your father besides you . ” Now she does cradle his cheek in the palm of one of her hands , sighing yet again . “ I am so sorry I could not give that to you . You deserved far better ” {+}

her son to have to take the burden upon him . she prayed , daily , nightly , to the gods . . . wishing for the safe return of Odysseus . “ all that I want , all that I’ve ever wanted is for you to be happy . To be safe , to be loved . I never wanted you to . . . to not be ” {+}

“ cease . It is foolish of you to think you could . They’ve power , lykos , power together that we do not . ” Stiffening , only slightly , as he grasps her hands in his own , as his words flowed like honey to her ears . She had long wanted that to happen , but not for {+}

she couldn’t help but at first try to reach out , to cradle his face in her hands as if he were young again . he was still so young to her . he always would be . restraining herself , she shakes her head solemnly . “ shh , there is nothing that you could do to make them ” {+}

is he certain he isn’t talking about himself ?

“ keep foolish jesters well away from me . I appreciate the company of my maids . Of the silence at night . The stillness of the water at daybreak . This is what keeps me sane , along with you , my son . ”

a wry , knowing chuckle and she smiles softly . “ oh I know the constriction of the palace walls all too well these 10 years . ” “ I fare as well as one can be when once has men breathing down her door to become her betrothed . . . I would not wish it to anyone , but I can ” {+}

she gracefully lowers herself to be seated besides him , folding her hands within her lap . his furrowed brow only caused to worry her more . it was obvious to her that something gnawed at the boy , though she would not force a disclosure . {+}

she gazes out upon the sea . waves crashed and seemed as if to shake the cliffs she stood upon . she wonders what lies upon the bottom of that sea . if it obscures the pearlescent bones of her love . she wonders often if she should join that water depth .

“ what of you ? why do you come out ? something troubles you ? ”