💌 9.39PM
Although I wasn’t able to give you a beautiful ending, thanks to Villains, I am leaving with so many happy moments in my life that I will never be able to forget.
Although I am now leaving Xdinary Heroes, I will never forget the love and affection you gave to me as Gun-il.
And wherever I may be in the future, I will always cheer for your lives as well.
Please continue to give our XDIZ lots and lots of love and support.
The five members are all wonderful, amazing, and lovable younger brothers to me, without exception.
Although I won’t be able to fulfill the dream of performing at Wembley together with them, I will now stand one step behind them, cheering them on and supporting them so that they can someday achieve that dream.
I poured everything I had into Xdinary Heroes and Villains. I really loved it all, and I loved you all so much.
Thank you for sharing my youth with me.
This was Goo Gun-il. Thank you.
💌 9.39PM
Around the time of the June Inspire concert, I was going through a mentally difficult period for various reasons. That person also found out around that time, and it is true that, at the time, I was somewhat emotionally dependent on them.
I also know that this story may sound like an excuse. But I want to make it clear that I did not say those words toward the villains I truly loved and believed in.
It would also be a lie to say that I had never once been dissatisfied with the members with whom I always lived and shared so much of our work and private lives. However, I can say without a shred of shame that I sincerely cherished and loved the members while I was active with XDIZ, and that I was always grateful for the love the Villains sent me.
The members were always people I was proud of and Villains were always people I was grateful for.
Now, there is no longer any way for me to prove it, nor is there any chance to rebuild the broken trust even once again. Still, I wanted to make it clear one last time that my feelings toward the fans and my feelings toward the members were always sincere.
I believe that how deeply I have loved my fans and the members is best known to the fans who have been with me for so long, the staff and employees who worked with me, the members I love, and my close friends and acquaintances.
Lastly, I would like to sincerely apologize to my fans, who have been hurt the most by this matter.
What hurts me the most is knowing that all the time and love you gave me to support me, and even the moments when you trusted me, may now feel meaningless or wasted.
In the end, I have left a wound that you cannot easily erase, just as you loved me. Knowing that the people I love and care about are suffering because of me is incredibly painful.
Even now, none of this feels real, and it feels like I’m living through a nightmare. If this is how I feel, I can’t even begin to imagine how much harder this must be for all of you.
I’m truly sorry.
I know that simply saying I’m sorry cannot fully express the pain I’ve caused, nor can it undo it.
Fansigns and fan meetings, concerts, overseas tours, festivals…
So many moments I’ve shared with Villains come flooding back to me.
Thank you, sincerely, for giving me so much love and so many memories throughout all those years. I will never forget the love you gave me or the memories we made together.
Thank you so much for loving and supporting someone as imperfect as me all this time.
💌 9.39PM
Hello Villains, This is Gun-il
I think this will probably be my last greeting to you as a member of Xdinary Heroes.
I really wanted to remain Xdinary Heroes until the very end, and I wanted to protect the six-member Xdinary Heroes. But as you all know, I had no choice but to accept the company’s decision
Even now, it still doesn’t feel real to me.
There are so many things I want to say to Villains. I still don’t know where or how to begin. But now that I am no longer a member of Xdinary Heroes, I don’t want to hide the truth or make excuses with lies just to protect myself. I believe there are things that I need to tell you myself, which is why I am writing this.
First of all, the person who wrote the post that started all of this was someone I met through an acquaintance and we dated for about two weeks.
At the time, I was mentally very exhausted because of the malicious comments and false rumors about me that had been going on for some time, as well as the various concerns I had about XDIZ’s music and performances. Rather than burdening the people close to me by opening up about how I was feeling, I was at a point where it felt easier to vent my frustrations to a stranger who didn’t really know me.
The person who made the inappropriate remarks about fans in the phone recording that was made public to Villains was indeed me. Regardless of the reason, the fact that I said those things does not change. I sincerely apologize to everyone who was disappointed and hurt by what I said.
However, I want to honestly explain what kind of situation and emotional state I was in at the time and who those words were directed toward.
Earlier this year, sasaeng fans broke into our dorm, and they even put a tracking device on my personal vehicle and followed me around. After experiencing things like that, I developed a lot of fear and resentment toward certain malicious fans, and I went through a very difficult time emotionally.
But because I was the leader and also the oldest hyung, I couldn’t easily talk about my fears or anxiety. I tried my best to control my emotions and carry on.
Then, in June of this year, I prepared for the Inspire Arena concert with the members, wanting to give Villains the absolute best performance we could. We prepared incredibly hard, and after finishing the first day’s performance, I checked social media with excitement and anticipation.
Of course, no performance can ever be perfect, and I believe we need to acknowledge our shortcomings and continue improving. However, that day, I saw a lot of malicious posts that went beyond criticism or opinions about the performance, things that were difficult for us to understand.
Because it was a performance I had prepared with all my heart, I think I broke down emotionally a lot when I saw the unexpected criticism and malicious comments.
That said, I didn’t want to cause worry to the company people or the members, so I couldn’t easily open up about my feelings. In the end, I poured out the emotions I had been holding back to someone I had only met not long ago, and in the process, I blurted out expressions that were too strong and wrong without hesitation.
I never thought that conversation would be recorded and made public. However, regardless of whether it was made public, I am fully aware that the very fact that I said such a thing was wrong.
There is only one thing I absolutely want to say.
At the time, the people I was speaking about emotionally were some malicious fans who, hiding behind anonymity, recklessly blamed us and violated our privacy. It was never what I said to all the villains who believed in and supported us.
I believe that because I have tried to show you the image of a diligent and reliable leader, the disappointment and sense of betrayal you may have felt through this matter must have been even greater. I sincerely feel very sorry about that.
💌 11.53PM
I didn’t get to take a picture before going on stage
So I took one after we were done..
It was seriously, seriously exhausting…. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Out of all the festivals we’ve done so far, today was the toughest one ㅋㅋㅋㅋ (p)
I really gave it everything I had ㅎㅎ
That was our most hardest setlist yet ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
I seriously thought I was going to stop breathing
I honestly felt like I was going to throw up while I was playing
💌 11.32AM
Hi
Did you enjoy the drum cam? ㅋㅋㅋ
Pretty cool right?!
I’ll do my best to make today’s Pentaport performance fun too
It’s going to be really hot
For Lainz who are coming today, make sure to put on plenty of sunscreen so you don’t get sunburned!
Wear arm sleeves and a sun visor when you come
