Idk why sometimes I really wanna talk to people and then the second I actually have to interact with someone my social battery just disappears😭 like I was literally bored five minutes ago and now someone is texting me and suddenly replying feels like a full time job. And its not even that I dont like talking to them, sometimes I just dont have the energy to turn whatever is happening in my head into actual words. I wanna be around people, just maybe without having to talk too much or explain myself or keep the conversation going. Like can we just exist in the same space and occasionally send each other something funny thats enough for me

There are days where I just want to buy little things for no reason. Not expensive things or anything actually useful even, just something cute that I can put on my desk and look at for five seconds before forgetting it exists. Like a tiny keychain, a cute cup, some random little decoration, stickers I probably wont use, a notebook even though I already have like ten notebooks sitting somewhere, literally anything that makes me go for a second. Sometimes I dont even want the thing that badly, I just like the feeling of finding something cute and thinking maybe I should get it. Unfortunately my bank account does not share my passion for tiny unnecessary objects and keeps reminding me that apparently food, bills and other boring adult things are more important😭 like okay I guess I wont buy the tiny frog-shaped thing I definitely didnt need but absolutely wanted for no reason

I really need to stop romanticizing being busy because sometimes all I want is a completely boring day. Like waking up late without feeling guilty about it, eating something good, cleaning one tiny corner of my room because thats all the energy I have, watching a few episodes of something, scrolling for way too long, maybe taking a random nap, taking a shower, putting on clean clothes, getting into bed and realizing I dont have to be anywhere or answer to anyone. No deadlines, no plans, no rushing around, no feeling like I should be doing something more important with my time. Just a really uneventful day where nothing happens and thats literally the whole point. Honestly that sounds so much more peaceful than whatever “productive” day Im always telling myself I should be having

Sometimes I dont even know if Im actually tired or just tired of having to think about everything all the time. Like what to eat, what to do, what I should be doing, whether I replied to someone, whether I spent too much money, whether I wasted today, whether I should be doing more with my life. Even when Im doing nothing my brain somehow finds something else to worry about. I can literally be lying in bed doing absolutely nothing and still feel like im forgetting something important. I just wanna exist for a bit without my brain turning literally everything into a task or something I need to figure out. I dont wanna have to make every day productive or meaningful, sometimes I just wanna have a day where nothing is expected from me and i dont feel guilty about it

I dont even need a perfect future. I just want a life where I can wake up n not immediately worry about money, work, time, expectations, & whether Im falling behind. I dont need to have everything figured out, I just want to feel like Im doing okay and that Im slowly building a life I actually want. I wanna be able to enjoy the little things without constantly thinking about what I should be doing next or what Im gonna do if things dont work out. maybe thats all I really want, just a little bit of peace in my own life

Ini ayam geprek sambal ijo bumbu sate, hari-hari pesen makan ini buat makan siang karena enak dan belum bosen. Ayamnya enak lembut, tepung luarnya lumayan crispy DAN YG PALING PENTING sambel ijo nya enak banget, wangi dan pedes gurihnya pas. Bumbu kacangnya juga enak, manisnya pas jadi pas makan tuh rasanya sooo balanced

Pernah sengaja keluar malem buat cari makan, dan pas pulang milih kereta terakhir supaya bisa dapet tempat duduk. Waktu itu hari minggu (malem senin), tau nya sama aja penuh sampe baru dapet tempat duduk setelah lewatin 13 stasiun😭sepanjang perjalanan sambil berdiri gak berenti mikir kayak “mereka pulang kerja atau pulang main ya?” “mereka baru pulang atau baru mau berangkat kerja ya?” Kalo keluar tuh aku selalu liat banyak ekspresi manusia, ada yang capek, ada yang flat, ada yang buru-buru, ada yang seneng. Makanya tiap lagi bosen hidup aku lebih pilih cari makan keluar, biasanya orang nyebutnya ‘nyari udara segar’

Tidur yang bikin seger tuh bener ternyata 6-7jam tapi di jam malem tidur, kalo tidurnya pagi mau lebih dari 8 jam pun bawaannya ngantuk aja terus jadi lemes ke badan, dan males ngapa ngapain

Terakhir pulang tuh kayaknya lebaran deh, kangen orang rumah, kangen masakan ibu, kangen kucing orenku yg gendut, tapi mesti nunggu libur panjang dulu buat pulang😞💔

Kalau diajak main, selalu bilang ke temen-temenku jangan dadakan minimal ngabarin 3jam sebelumnya. Paling gabisa kalo diajak main dadakan karena aku dandannya lama😭dan beginilah penampakan meja setiap aku mau pergi keluar

Gapapa kalo belum jadi pegawai tetap, gapapa kalo ngga jadi pns, gapapa kalo belum menikah, gapapa kalo belum punya anak, gapapa kalo belum punya anak ke-2, gapapa kalo mau child free, hidup ngga harus selalu ngikutin standar yang dianggap normal sama orang lain. Semua punya jalan hidup masing-masing, selagi ngga merugikan orang lain ngga masalah

Baru nyoba dimsum ini yang katanya enak dan ternyata deket banget yang jual nya di belakang kostanku, 8/10 lah nanti mau nyoba yang mentai

Pernah eval seminggu sekali, itu pun dia yang nyaranin tapi malah dia sendiri yg gak bisa diajak diskusi #heran so i let him go

Lagi nonton The Mentalist, tiap episode beda kasus jadi ngga bosen nontonnya. Makan nasi bakar dan sop bening sambil nonton gini seruuu

Iya lagi, sekarang udah jarang pake mini bag karena bawaanku banyak kalo keluar (powerbank, charger, lippies, tissues, dompet, mini mirror, earphones, hp) like GIRL there’s no way all that is fitting in a mini bag😞

I hate when I finally find the perfect position in bed and then realize I need to pee

Why does my bed become 10x more comfortable when I actually need to get up

I’m such a sweet tooth I could finish a whole box of Ovomaltine brownies by myself and still ask for more💔

Being hungry but not knowing what you want to eat is actually a personal attack

I used to think I needed something exciting to have a good day. Turns out, sometimes a box of cold watermelon is enough