Trying to make sense of my #trauma and share personal experiences of my healing and recovery. #csasurvivor
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Had physio appointment on the phone & even something as seemingly harmless as that was hugely triggering for me as a #CSA survivor. I feel drained & triggered now after so many intrusive questions, which were necessary but upsetting. This is why trauma informed care is so vital.
Is it normal to feel a weird mix of happiness & devastation as you start to come to terms with your story of #CSA? After so long in & out of denial, things are feeling very real today. It feels good to be able to own my story a bit more, but utterly terrifying & despairing too.
Finding it hard not to be able to speak out openly about the #CSA because it happened so young, I don’t have clear memories, I still have to protect other family. It’s complicated, as it is for many survivors. Still only just coming to terms with the fact it really happened 1/2
Yet there is still this inexplicable urge to talk about it & It feels all consuming at times. I suppose it comes down to having been silenced about it when young. One day I hope I can be free to say what I need to say & let the denial go once & for all. 2/2 #CSA
Anyone in England know of any advocacy services who could support us at meetings with our autistic child’s secondary school over SEND issues? We have been in touch with NAS Education Rights helpline but they offer support with letters rather than in person. #AutismAcceptanceWeek
Sometimes we don’t have a good enough parent & we have to be our own parent. I couldn’t have known how, without it being modelled by a safe therapist who I will always view as my chosen mum. Feeling both sadness & gratitude. It is not the same as what I missed, but it is enough.
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MPs just voted on a motion to remove private schools' £1,700,000,000 tax break.
That could pay for free school meals for *all* primary school pupils almost twice over.
But Tory MPs voted it down, choosing to protect elite private schools, not improve opportunities for all kids.
I can feel the anger building up inside of me. I’ve never been able to recognise this before. I’ve always been dissociated from it. Now I can feel the beginnings of rage about what my abusers did to me. It wants to burst out of me & I think it is slowly starting to happen. #CSA
This is definitely how I’m feeling today.
I have this intense feeling of loneliness. Not sure why, because I’m in a better headspace than I’ve been 4 ages. Found my way back to my therapist after a very traumatic time, have more people in my life than ever, but this innate sense of loneliness still overwhelms me. #CSA
I don’t know what I expected to be honest, but it’s hard when people disbelieve & say your memories aren’t real. I struggle with the denial anyway, so to have others reinforce this makes it 10x harder. I don’t have clear memories but so much trauma in my body. Feeling sad. #CSA
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This is me a terminally ill man with 85% bone cancer,im asking for as many people as possible to support & follow me as i take on the government on behalf of the thousands of terminally ill people being penalised by the dwp.I can't do it without your help
I hate what the abuse has done to me. It’s robbed me of a normal life, normal attachments, any sense of self worth or safety. I am in so much pain right now. I know this is a good thing because I’m starting to heal, finally, but withstanding the pain is torturous. #CSA
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6 months ago I launched a petition @UKParliament for the #UKgovernment to fund support schemes for survivors of #csa.
Petition hasn’t got anywhere close to the signatures it needs, which is sad, but I’m not giving up hope.
Please sign & share ⬇️
petition.parliament.uk/petit…
So much #CSA takes place behind closed doors at home, where no organisations will ever be involved. No evidence. No suspicions. Just children left to fend for themselves. I was lucky that it stopped for me at a certain age, but for others, the nightmare continues. Feeling sad.
Hi everyone, will try and participate but it’s usual Monday night bedlam here #csaqt
This makes me so sad (& angry). I’ve spent the last 10+ years battling my own denial around my #CSA due to blocking it out for yrs. Acceptance is the only way to healing, so to read this is devastating. I was disbelieved by 2 MH professionals who I first disclosed to.
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I hate being told ‘it will pass’ because it doesn’t help me when I’m stuck in the thick of it. To me it feels invalidating and makes me angry, like I’m not trying hard enough somehow.