『heavyheart』

she just wanted to be loved

you were living your life, completely unaware that somewhere, someone was quietly falling apart over the thought of never being yours.

a part of me will always wonder what it would have felt like to be loved by you

and here, darling, we have come to an end.

if this is the last time i write about you, let it be known you were never just another person to me. you were the ache i couldn't explain, the almost that felt like everything. and still, i'd choose to have known you, even if it meant learning to live without you.

i'll find you in every universe.

how can i forget you, when i still remember the way your voice sounded, the way you laughed, the things you said without realizing i'd remember them, the moments you probably forgot, and the way i never knew they would become memories.

if only we knew it was the last time.

there are things i'll never get back, a conversation we'll never finish, a goodbye i never got to say, and a person i'll spend forever missing.

there's a number in my phone that will never ring again, a voice i'll never hear, a face i'll never see, a hand i'll never touch, but someone i'll always love.

i'm homesick for a voice and laugh i'll never get to hear again.

and for the rest of my life, i'll wonder if you ever think of me the way i think of you.

𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦, 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘦 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦.

all roads lead back to july.

kinda missing you rn.