Day 383 of training for Veteran’s Worlds with @BuFuApp: Yesterday I made the difficult - but mostly sad - decision to pull the plug on this year’s World Championships. I have been closely following the situation in the Middle East hoping it would improve, or that the event would be moved, but that has not been the case. I desperately wanted to wrestle but it is not the right time for myself, or for my family, to travel to that part of the world. I respect the decision to keep the event in Jordan and hope all of my new friends bring home medals and another trophy. We are the three-time defending World Championships. I have put an extreme amount of effort into this. I had to lose about 50 pounds, tore my leg up, got my ass kicked at the U.S. Open. Those are just the lowlights. Maybe a thousand workouts since I started. More than a thousand meals weighed on a food scale. It has not been an easy road. I am not proud of any anything I have done up to this point, though. That is just how I feel. More embarrassed than anything. I haven’t won anything and my goal is to win. That is not everyone’s goal and that is fine but it is mine. Next year’s World Championships would fall around Day 730 if I were to continue. I have thought about that a lot. It is a long time. These guys are very good and this is a serious commitment that requires a lot of time, pain, discipline. I really want to wear a singlet with an American flag on it, though. I was on the mat this morning, ran this afternoon. There is not much time.