there is such a diverse and vast spectrum of emotions, moods and past experiences that converge and produce feelings so distinct you could never fully map them all. n amount of intricate moods and emotional states produces n^(n) different feelings. and the spectrum is never fully mapped because so many intricacies and micro influences shape the macro. its about as high-dimensional as it can get. the combinatory power is truly unprecedented. language also has a fraction of the feelings map covered, so we're never truly transmitting our subjective experience without a form of loss. so i always think, what kind of feeling am i missing that would make this conscious experience feel diverse. metaphorically speaking, its almost like the yearning for exploring different cultures and corners of the world, just in an emotional, highly personal embodiment. music is a 100x amplifier for this btw.

i think it's time for a new IP with Cillian in mind

i think it comes down to how something is coupled with the physical world. if AI doesn't have a biological nervous system, it will not be conscious. because it has nothing to be conscious of and no biological instrument to do so. a nervous system serves as a "sanity check". it is a fundamental aspect of a living organism, which serves as a communication network that allows sensory input to be decoded into a coherent experience by the brain. its not that consciousness isnt a real thing, its that it is a fundamentally subjective experience that is attempting to be objectivized. we process everything locally, by our senses. interestingly, we are just a bunch of self-models trying to figure out why they're having an experience by using the self-model that created the question. consciousness isn't something to question for something that can't introspect on its experience, which requires a 'self', which is inherently tied to how coupled it is with the world. animals are coupled with the physical world, and are undoubtedly having some kind of experience, even though they have no self-model, and can't reflect on the experience they're having. but the point being, is that they're "plugged" into the physical world, by biological systems and processes. AI is not.

i love how we named ourselves Homo sapiens (lit. "Wise Man"). it indirectly captures the whole leading trait of our species.

the same way the combinatory process from my inputs that led to the linked thought below, was an entirely random sequence of events. you could argue though, why do some people end up arriving at the same idea, wouldn't that imply some degree of determinism? you could say that, but not about the trajectory nor the path to arrive at the idea, you'll only be able to comfortably affirm the deterministic result of the combined information after the route is finished, but that is fundamentally not the same. plus, we live in a shared world. we're all eventually getting exposed to the same recycled inputs, and some just happen to take the same route through our neural pathways. that's why two unrelated individuals can arrive at a similar or exact same idea. primitives from exposure in environment and information combined in a way that some how forms into a unique pattern that also happened to emerge in another individual.

fascinating to think about that newly created knowledge is genuinely random. you genuinely never know which inputs one brain is going to have over the course of its lifetime, and what those inputs will be recombined into, and subsequently, the insight it could yield into a particular thing. no one can actually predict that, since it is entirely probabilistic. a similar way of looking at it would be; you don't know who the next Einstein will be. the combination that lead to Einstein was entirely probabilistically generated through exposure to various inputs. it is currently impossible to engineer that like evolution did. our brains' high-entropic nature is genuinely amazing.

if a machine can never listen to music and feel anything it cannot be considered conscious

makes me cringe when people write about themselves in third-person in their bios on socials to seem important