i need to leave some cals for 1-2 hours before bed cause the voices get real loud after certain hours
ok fuck it after i survive next week and 3 days ill up my intake a bit and make sure all my calories count bc i need to lock in studying cause this fatigue is kicking my ass genuinely
people who are confused when they find out i dont believe im pretty dont see whats hiding under my clothes and all the work it takes every day to look pretty
the whole butt acne thing going around is pmo cause ive tried literally everything over the years thinking consistency will work but nothing changed so i have to go to a dermatologist because its simply out of my control. i wish everyone who calls it gross lots of butt acne <3
ive been disordered for years since my 3 closest friends are skinny af but what broke me was starting to date my bf who's also incredibly skinny and i was like ok i cant take this anymore
how do you sleep when you're starving i take melatonin gummies and i wake up in the middle of the night feeling like i didnt sleep and struggling to go back to sleep
i need to go home to my appetite killing pills and safe foods im just sitting in my bf's room starving with a bunch of bullshit surrounding me
im so hungry i had soup and cake for a friends birthday yesterday but i felt hungry the whole time afterwards and i reduced my cals for the rest of the week but im still so hungry idk what to do
so fucking lonely i cant tell anyone what im going through bc for some reason telling people you have an ed activates their brain to become disordered too and what business do i have telling my friends i starve myself bc i hate my body like thats embarrassing
i should be able to continue my 4550cal per week until late november then i start eating at maintenance until i finish exams and come back from visiting my sister. unless running x3 a week makes me short circuit
love omading my meal in a bottle it has 35g of protein and tastes like milkshake. i just sip it throughout the day