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would you pet stray cats with me

i want to eat everything and nothing. i want Something but theres nothing that id like to have

serving sizes always make me feel like such a fat disgusting freak

one more fucking responsibility and i'll go insane

2 forever 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼 fuck me man

i was meant to have three full days off this week and now its still gonna end up being just one . i cant fucking do this anymore

there's a difference between knowing something happened and remembering it

dreading work today

on here more often bc i wanna be less negative on my ig spam but that kinda means i cant post on there at all anymore and i "need" some sort of outlet ig. even tho no one's gonna validate me in any way anywhere ever . ew imagine needing something thats disgusting i disgust myself

barely an ed account anymore, just a fat bitch who hates her body but won't do anything about it account

i hate being fat but im also the one who did this to me so

i hate accepting compliments when i know i don't deserve them

oh my god why do i get my hopes up

sometimes i get excited (delusional) when doing gigs n events so beforehand i just take a minute to be like "none of these people are your friends . you are not important . keep ur energy low" to ensure i'll act more normal lol

i wish i was a better person to everyone in my life. better friend, better daughter, better sister, better pet owner, etc etc etc etc everything. im so fucking awful

i don't wanna be awake anymore but its way too early to go to bed i won't be able to sleep for hours

when will i make any mental progress

i feel so emptyyyyyyyyyy

just had to send our choir costume lady a picture of my gala dress but i only have photos in which i was still reasonably skinny so i sent it and she replied saying its beautiful and looks so good on me and all i can think is Fraud Fraud Fraud Fraud Fraud Fraud Fraud Fraud Fraud