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I reach for the light I need. Is it there?

The pain of being deceived again.

Well, it's not like anyone would care even if I was gone, right...? Actually, I bet you all *want* me gone! You all think I'm disgusting! You think I don't know, but I do...

Do you just want to torture me? Watch me suffer? Were you only pretending to be kind, just to hurt me even more?

My arms are open for you, look at me now Baby if you want you got me I know you're broken darling and I won't let you down Baby I've been waiting for you

Breathing's easier under water I can see sky from here

There's something incredibly faint, deep down, that screams to resist this uncontrollable pleasure, but I can already tell that I'm pushed to the edge. I can't... I can't stop myself.

Dreams, they feel like memories when I dream of you.

But I don't want him to know. Because I'm sure I'll be labeled a stalker.

It's you and me. It's always been you and me. We belong together. And nobody is going to take you from me.

I sigh. Everything feels incredibly repetitive.

I've got headaches and bad luck, but they couldn't touch you, no

Me and God, we don't get along.

This is the price you'll pay Thoughts in your head that will never die So don't you forget what we had It's like I was never even there

So I pray, but the world burns And still, you need to come first

I-I'm starting to feel nauseous from the thrills, the chills, the kills...

But I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. You hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.

And it's never your fault, is it?

Tie me, I won't leave Come on, baby, let's do somethin' pretty

You carved open my heart! Can't just leave me to bleed!