My health anxiety has gone batshit bonkers lately seems like I'm reading stories event day about horrible illness and dying, if I'm not overthinking one thing it's another 😞😩

It is 1pm and I've yet again done nothing except wallow in self pity and moan how bored I am what is wrong with me. Everyone is enjoying their Sunday doing all kinds and I'm sat here like a twat

What would you say your purpose in life is? If you have one.

My daughter drew this to give me when I got home from work yesterday 😍

Eric Cantona. I absolutely LOVED him and he's got better with age

Sorry to break it to you all but seeing as Arsenal are top of the league for Christmas, the apocalypse is surely imminent #COYG

Being up for work at 5am on a Saturday should be illegal 😭

Ngl I'm struggling. Not with drink, but still not doing what needs to be done. Need to *sleep* Need to eat properly, need to get outside more need some routine and discipline back. Just feel rubbish and aimless.

Saw this today it's so true 😞

"self help" everything is not helpful. It's all should should should. It's overwhelming and entirely unhelpful.

I wish I had more time to do stuff. Then I look at my phone screen time. Fucking hell. I have all the time. It's scary actually.

This thread is just 😍📚

Back to day 14 since 'the incident' and honestly it's not really changed how I feel or made it harder. It was a blip, I'm not gonna sit and stew over it. 5 minutes out of four and a half months is nothing

Top gooner ❤️

If I can blame something on my addiction or on my addictive personality then I can avoid taking any responsibility for it. That's why drinking feels 'safe' even though it's the opposite. It's the safety net and stops me having to work on my issues.

Why am I so invested in things that make me feel like shit??

That was never a penalty in a million years. It's just getting boring now 😴😴😴