"i just wanted to feel something" this was the best way to describe my youthful days. i just tried to fill that hole in my heart with anything i could feel. drugs did not ruin my life like porn did. i spent so much time thinking about it from such a young age and it really destroyed my ability to have relationships. it was the addiction of my life, the most significant and to this day is something i have to be careful about. meth, lsd, pot and the like never pulled me in like porn did. i have no idea what made porn so addictive. drugs seemed to be situational for me, i simply had to stay away from people associated with them to break the habits. i broke all my friendships. it was the "silver bullet" for me. but porn, shheeesh. sorry i have no silver bullet for quitting. the problems of drug use were trivial in comparison for me. even cigarettes, though a long road to break, i was able to get through "easily" compared to porn. a lot of questions about it all recently. i think a lot of people are coming to the realization how addicted to porn they are and just how much it affects their lives. hope you all find the stamina to fight it everyday. i also say this because i don't want people to think that my battle with drugs was an epic ordeal. it presented difficulty and took some time to break, but it wasn't the primary. i thought i made that clear in Lex's podcast, but people had questions.