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to be transparent, my confidence has been at an all time low these past few months not really depressed, but i just didn't like the person i was becoming losing money trading was one thing, however, being the man who didn't follow his own systems and his word didn't sit well with me, also was spending too much time on social media i was going back and forth with that internally then that bled into me not focusing on my bread and butter, which is making the best videos i possibly can and sharing good stories with the world i got comfortable and started winging most things again, when for years i had dedicated so much time and energy into preproduction then on top of all that, i felt like my body was breaking down. tendons started aching, my central nervous system felt shot, it was just a cocktail of pain lol. and you guys know how much i value health, and just being able to move freely all that led me to having a shorter temper and just being "down" around my family tldr, it felt like i was going backwards earlier this week, i finally spoke about all of this openly with my family i told everyone i was feeling burnt out, and that my confidence (which is usually very high) had really been taking a hit i'm grateful that they all comforted me, and most importantly, reminded me that it's okay to feel however i feel, and that if i needed anything, they were there for me sometimes that's all you need to hear so beginning this week, i wanted to come back to the simple things, the foundations that no matter what happens, i can look back and say i've "won" the day > going to bed on time and getting enough sleep > putting in real work into my passions, making better and better videos, caring again > being a better husband, son, and friend > my workouts can't be explosive right now, but learning to enjoy the mundane, the slow squats, the longer warm ups > reading more, getting off x, and doing the things that would make me proud of myself none of these things are particularly extraordinary, but they're things that are entirely within my control and i think that's what i needed to come back to the point of this post is that it's okay to feel however you feel, through all the highs and lows obviously, in life, we all want it to be filled with joyous moments, extraordinary experiences, and the best of the best but life is like a heartbeat monitor there will always be highs and lows and that's what reminds us we're alive