A person turns a corner eventually, and I think I’ve hit the sweet spot of my time. Not because I turned out to be anybody special, and not because I checked off all the world's obligations. I’ve given up on being anything other than myself, and I’m fine with that.
I gave you all the love I had and you took it with you like a possession. Was it enough to fill your cup with cold malice?
There are things in this world I can work for, plan for, put effort into aside the toil of each day's duty. I asked for love, for health, for happiness, for everything that really mattered to my hearts.
I looked like I'd spent the afternoon arranging ikebana instead of lying on my back in the meadow, perfecting the art of emptying my head. There was only so much trigonometry I could take before I needed a wide open sky and fistful of wildflowers.
In the old world, survival was about adaptation. You grew thicker fur for the winter. You developed a sharper beak for the seeds. You played the game and you hoped the house didn't win. But as the climate collapsed and the oceans soured, the house stopped playing fair.
Centuries later, a jagged tooth of chrome and hubris where the final embers of humanity’s "Golden Age" flickered. They spent decades trying to map the soul, but ended up just stitching together biological anomalies that the natural world had spent eons trying to prevent.
They used to say the world ended with a roar. They were wrong. The end is much more elegant that arrives on the back of a crystalline thrum. It is an atmospheric takeover which now stand like jagged skeletons of polished jet.
No one knows where it came from, and perhaps our minds are too small to house the truth. Some say it was summoned by a grief too heavy for the world to carry, a psychic hemorrhage that finally tore a hole in the fabric of the mundane.
But listen, after everything you’ve been through (the stuff we don’t even need to talk about), I hope you realize that age is just a number. There’s so much beauty in the slow burn, and you’ve already outgrown the crowd in ways they can’t even imagine.