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Hey... Once again I am moved by all the reactions of support that we can receive when we open up a little. I do not find that social networks are toxic from the moment we surround ourselves with intelligent and discerning people (Of course it is sad to see this benevolent space invaded by the propaganda circus and by even more massive evidence of generalized gullibility and stupidity) Anyway. Don't get me wrong; I will not stop creating. I can't. Continuing to create is the only thing I have ever wanted for my life. When I started in NFTs I put everything I had, 200% of myself and more. I probably knew the price to pay but I sacrificed everything anyway to fulfill myself. I'm not going to complain now. I also swept a lot of dust under the carpet. "Let's push some more, I'll sort this stuff out later. I'll sleep when I'm dead" Until this stuff exploded in my face and absolutely paralyzed everything. Seriously, my life became a chaos and I had no choice but to tackle it. It's the biggest challenge I've ever had to face, by far. So yes, it's hard to tell yourself that you haven't managed to achieve your goals for reasons outside of yourself. It's hard to be deprived of the dream that you could touch right there. This impossibility is the thing that affects my moral state the most. No, being bogged down in problems that have nothing to do with art doesn't please me and it's not what I dreamed of for myself. I have no choice but to manage the mountain of problems and hope I have the strength to overcome them. What I mean is that the internet, crypto, collecting, sharing, all that stuff, it's just not possible for me anymore, because it's too demanding and there's no room for it. It's simple math. It's not that I don't like it, I just can't fit it in anymore, that's all. I can't participate in conversations, I can't get involved in a project, I can't chase the next trending thing or simply stay aware/connected. I had come to assume a supporting role, that of a figure whose actions or words mattered. I realize that it's just too much for me, it's illusory to think that I can do these things in the context that is mine. So I'm going to do what I'm going to do, it doesn't matter really, I'm not going to put on a costume that's too big for me, that's all. I love creating, I need to create, I am not lacking inspiration, and creating is still my truest dream. So we will see, whatever happens, happens. On a positive personal note, I feel like the hardest of my irl problems is behind , and that I am on an upward slope. Although the problems will never be completely over, and I will have to learn to compose with them. Good thing as well is that, see, I wrote smthg again and it didn't even take me that long. Coz it don't matter :) Love💚