I’ve just wrote a really positive poem about my illness & how much happier I am now #bpd #eupd #recovery

I am so bloody irrational. Basically got so angry & agitated cos I don’t have anything wrong with me. It just feels so incredibly invalidating to have felt so intensely unwell for a week to be told they don’t know why & nothing serious up.

Finally saw doc. No obvious issues. Felt better so discharged myself. Now I’m home. Let’s just hope & prey this is the last of it & whatever caused me to be so ill has gone

So fucked off been waiting to see doc since I got to this ward 12 hours ago. For some reason they didn’t see me on 5 o clock rounds & they don’t have a reason why.

So I’ve got appendicitis. Only took 2 trips to docs & 2 trips to a&e where I was fobbed off with food poisoning when I knew it wasn’t that. Currently waiting to be transferred to surgical assessment unit hooked up to anti biotics & fluids.

Wondering if twitter could maybe help diagnose me. I just keep getting told it’s food poisoning but I doubt it. Nausea & vomiting for 5 days. Was getting relief from hot showers & hot water bottle but not even that now. No other symptoms not even diarreah

Crying down the phone to 111 & gp receptionist to do something. This is fucking awful. Why have I got so ill again?

It’s been a rough few days feeling so incredibly ill with food poisoning. Feel better since being at hosp yesterday & getting IV anti sickness & a bag of fluid. Still not 100% tho can’t smoke still which says everything. Wanna be back in top shape ASAP cos it’s really annoying

I have been so ill since last night. So I’ll I couldn’t even tweet. Got emergency docs appt. got anti sickness meds. Seem to have improved now after those an hours kip

Had an awesome night last night. Best New Year’s Eve in years! Top night

Booked taxis to the highest point in town, queen Victoria’s jubilee tower to watch the fireworks all over town. So excited. Gonna wrap up warm & Take s few spliffs yo smoke

So I guess the best thing that happened to me this decade is falling in love, being loved & being in a healthy loving relationship. It’s proved one of my strongest core beliefs wrong, I am indeed a lovable person. So thanks to my amazing BF for proving to me I can be loved ❤️ 😘

But best thing that’s happened to me this decade is my BF. I get to see out the decade with my most favourite person in the world & get to start the new decade officially in love. 10 years ago, hell even until very recently I thought I was unlovable & never be in a relationship

I end the decade free from a hospital admission in over a year & a half. Can count on 1 hand the self harm I’ve done this year after beginning the decade with it being a very frequent occurrence. So I guess progress has been made this decade

So I began this decade in a secure psychiatric intensive care unit which was my first ever admission where I was constantly in & out of seclusion & being injected in the bum frequently. I then spent bar the last 1.5 years in & out all over the country going on 40 admissions

Wtf when did amazon music go up to £10.99? I’ve had an email from Spotify I can get 3 months for £9.99 as an ex Spotify user before amazon music lured me in cos I have Alexa. But all my recent playlists are on amazon. Fuck streaming sites

Can’t believe I didn’t wake until gone 4pm. Wasted all of Boxing Day & woke in the dark. I needed the sleep after being awake 22 hours on less than 5 hours sleep tho. But now I’ve messed my body clock up big time. I’d only recently got it better a bit.

I’m so shattered. Been awake over 20 hours. Usually I only spend 12 hours of the day awake. Deffo time to call it a night

Felt ill for a while now. Couldn’t keep Christmas dinner down. Felt utterly awful. Regretted spending £50 on alcohol cos too ill to drink. Feel better now so on the alcohol. It will not go to waste

After googling methods to stretch jeans it said lay in warm bath with them on for 15 mins then pull at them for 10. Would it work if I wore them in shower instead? I hate baths plus my bath is tiny & I am huge so they’ll be no room to manoeuvre the pulling the jeans to stretch