last night i attempted on my life. i am leaving shedtwt. i am entering recovery. yes shed moots can stay, ily guys, but just know im trying to get better. right now, i am deciding to give myself the luxury of a future. ty all for giving me this wonderful community 🤍

shut the fuck up and tell me??? 😭😭😭

i just slept for 18 hours

this is just for funsies… more of an all about me if anything 🤍 block.youtest.me/find?id=kNR…

IM ABANDONED IN THIS LOCKED CAR LIKE A DOG

i feel like SHIIIIT OOHHHHH MY GODDDDD IM GONNA THROW UP OVER ALL YALL

having to deal with permanent teeth damage from my old purging :/ at least i stopped when i did i guess

got 5 hours of sleep. translation: ITS OVER (i cannot function with anything below 8 hours it’s terrible)

GUYS! i have a sleepover with four of my other friends! isn’t that fweaking awesome yaaahhhhhhhhh! ヾ(๑╹◡╹)ﾉ"

ughhhhhhh, there’s no more volumes of my manga in the library. and i’m stuck in the middle. this sucks, i can’t even find anywhere to watch or read it for free (｀_´)ゞ

why did i do that to myself? why didn’t i realize i already knew how to live my life?

i think i’m starting to realize that my life was kinda fucking crazy and what id been doing to myself from may-september was like. insane. it feels like a fever dream. the whole time i was telling myself i wasn’t mentally/physically ill enough. i look crazy looking back lmfao

i’m sorry for thinking my life wasn’t worth living, please don’t take me. i don’t want to die anymore. i don’t want to die. i want to live. please don’t take me, i want to live. i love my life. i’ve loved it all along. thank you for reminding me. i don’t want to die anymore

school meeting went well! nothing to stress about! all good! although i’ve been fighting strange nausea. just feeling terrible but how are my moots? :)

— meet your oomfie ٩( ᐛ )و my names travis 🩹 ๑ sign: gemini ๑ hobbies: reading, video games, art ๑ fave drink: sprite or black tea ๑ animal: dogs. all dogs! ๑ comfort movie: not a movie, but saiki k is my comfort show

oh god. the weight of all my failure is coming back to burden me. i wish i planned ahead…….. recovery is hard. it would be so much easier to just give up. but would it be better? oh well.

i eat breakfast for the first time ever and i am in so much pain. never again

i swallowed my own cum and now my throat is sore i’m a fucking loser

this was the first photo i took right after i nearly overdosed it’s like an apology

i thought if i checked out TWO volumes from the library, id have my hands full for the day… seems not. i’m fucking bored now.

i liked a guy but he was straight. anyways onto the next one until i find someone who will give me a chance… and maybe is not straight i’ll let yall know how that goes