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Hello chaps. Long story short I'm taking a bit of a break. Just as a heads up the post is going to delve into my head, if you're not interested don't read past here. Long story short I enjoy what I do but things are rough on me at the moment. I long-term deal with CPTSD and other things co-morbid with that including depression. I have full support for this but even clinicians can only take you so far. Recently my physical health has taken a turn for the worst too, preventing me from doing things from working out to even streaming, Im getting it checked out but honestly my body is falling apart. I thought after a victorious milestone recently things would get better for me, in reality it's become increasingly apparent that I'm not okay. Some of you I think have suspected and reached out, and I appreciate that. There has been a great deal of difficulties my way, one after the other in very quick succession and one day when it's time to tell that story I will. I love this life as a content creator, I get to meet awesome people and do cool things, but it's also a lonely one. I went from pretty small time to being stopped on the street because I get recognised (and don't stop doing that I love meeting you lot) in a very short span of time and there isn't a textbook on how to deal with that and as much as I love it, it can be overwhelming. Regarding loneliness, despite me being surrounded by people, I'm also pretty isolated, it's a case of come 12am I am most times left staring at the ceiling. A lot of you guys are going through that as well as to say it's fucking rough is an understatement. despite speculation as well I am single and have been trying and am currently trying to rectify that issue, just not a very easy thing to do. I won't dwell on it for long but I had a large chunk of my identity ripped away after one of the biggest betrayals of my life years ago. I lost everything because of the betrayal of that person, it still haunts me to this day. Some things you never walk away the same person and while I've overcome it and put that shit show to bed, I still mourne the person I used to be before that. One day I'll tell that story, but today's not that day. Some friends are taking me in while I get into a better place. I'll still make some short form but I won't be all that active. I'll come back a lot more keen and ready to go. I can only thank those closest to me for their patience, love and support throughout this. I will be engaged in some specific business related things as well and open to enquiries, but I'll be slowed right down. I hate asking but been told to put it here anyway, if you want to help there is a donation thing on my twitch and you can buy merch. The first one is intentionally convoluted because I'm not hear to beg for your hard earned money. I'll sort myself out then hopefully you'll see less of this tortured comic shit. In the meantime though bare with me, things are rough and I just need to get out of it as best I can. I'll catch you in a bit chaps, hang tight, seas are stormy but we'll make it, just a particularly bad storm season.

100k! Let’s celebrate! Sadly Her Ladyship has used the cannons on the ramparts to plant geraniums, & the roof Beacon has been colonised by bats so instead I WILL BE DOING A LIVE Q&A AT 9PM BST* Sat 23/05/26 Come along and watch me fight the technology and probably play KSP badly!

@SquireFlyer left me alone for less than 3 seconds