Living is torture

I love abusing substances

guesssss who’s drunk

woke up today to find my 100$ pair of IEMS broken

“suicide is selfish” fine, okay i’m selfish i’m an awful person I get it

well guys time to go jack off

God I love benzos I have no idea what I did yesterday

I look around my peers, and realize no matter how hard I try, or beg, I will never, ever be able to live a happy life

I wanna cut but i’m so fucking lazy…. the blood.. the cleanup.. the aftercare…

got new blades yall which one should i use to relapse

tried to overdose yesterday just ended up sleeping for 18 hours

kinda wanna cut but no particularly upset about anything

go to make oomfs / friends on here without sounding pathetic (i’ll he pathetic if u ask nicely)

i’m off 5mg of benzo rn i’m chillling

i’m barred out rn doing gardening at 11pm neighbors must think i’m insane

why am i losing followers guys i’m sorry

who wants to see my plants

repotting all my plants in preparation from winter i’m exhausted and covered in dirt