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There's no DESTINYᅠorᅠFATE, ᅠᅠjust a TERRIFYING WAIT, filled with PEOPLEᅠTHATᅠYOUᅠHATEᅠ,ᅠand ᅠᅠon a certain date ー the universe KILLS YOUᅠ!! joaquín “johnny c.” “the homicidal maniac” cortez. ᅠᅠa painter, once.ᅠᅠstill a painter, kind of. ♯jthmrp. ♯mvrp.

“ gross. i will say, you've been remarkably unsuccessful with that so far. must be SO hard to be a social validation-grubbing leech when the person whose body you're in is obstinately unsubscribed from social norms, huh? ”

“ well, that's pretty immature for an ultra-logical supercomputer, no? you wanted to kill a cat, but changed your mind because i said i wanted you to do it. nyeh nyeh! hey, hey ー DON'T make me kill myself. i would be so incredibly upset if you did that. ”

“ so do it, instead of just announcing your intentions like a pussy. i don't walk up to people and say 'hey, i'd really LIKE to kill you'ー i just kill 'em. go on! ”

“ ehh. you haven't given me a reason to, yet. which, mind you, is a very low standard and could change at any time. ” he does HAVE a moral code. it's a very loose, often self-contradictory and even hypocritical one, but it is there. “ but that's just an absence of a negative. ”

“ yyyyes? ” said with the tone of someone who's pretty sure his honest, straightforward answer is, somehow, the 'wrong' one. “ i've ended up murdering every person who's taken it upon themselves to be nice to me. i wouldn't exactly call it a wise decision. ”

silently touching his chin in thought, for a loooong moment. “ ... why? ” it's not self-pitying. he legitimately doesn't get it.

“ the only time i've ever had nice skin is when i flay it off of patrick bateman motherfuckers whose morning cosmetic routines have more steps than al-anon. those people aren't human. ”

“ don't patronize me, pal. the only place i wouldn't stand out is in an edward gorey picture book. ”

“ i'm sure i'm deficient in vitamins and minerals most people haven't even heard of. look at me. i belong in a fucking med school textbook. ”

“ weird thing to say unprovoked. ”

“ i'll accept that. you're all about basic human decency, huh? funny, that i get more of that from something obviously inhuman ー no offense ー than from most quote-unquote 'normal' 'people'. ”

“ no, but get a different reason than 'i'd feel bad' for not beating me up. ”

“ eugh, pity. gross. ”