docs.google.com/document/d/1… heres a google document sharing my side of the Accusations, my claims I kept sharing, and what happened to me recently. It is absolutely awful that I had to come home from the hospital just to have my friend @InkedInHeat help me write this up so I can plug in screenshots, video evidence ect. but I wanted to get this out because I genuinely felt unsafe since someone named Starry Ghoul is out here accusing what happened to being faked when it wasnt. even my other irl Quinken friend who has WITNESSED me before with my phone after an attempt had to come out for the doc to write a statement on my behalf as well. I always just vague posted instead of coming out with a google doc because I was intimidated, scared into silence, or even harassed when I WAS silent (by toxicj mostly) I just wanna upload and address my side of what has been going on with me reguarding my recent posts, my friend Inked/Mel/Mack, my ex friend groups (both of them) why I've called them pedo apologists and STILL believe they are pedo apologists, why I felt the need to make so many posts throughout the year (due to harassment from a few of em egging me on essentially and not leaving me alone) and give my side of everything and why I feel sick to my stomach about everything. I have been accused of some really disheartening accusations, lost followers, and was even accused of lying about alot of things or that "my story isn't adding up" or that I "don't have evidence" well here you go. it was hard to tell the entire side or 'show evidence' when i had to sit down and recollect literal trauma Zane, ToxicJ, Jackel, NerdyKai and many others litterally put me through. The actions of many of these individuals have caused me significant emotional pain and lasting trauma, making it incredibly difficult for me to trust others both online and in real life. These experiences have left me struggling to feel safe opening up to people, fearing that I may be hurt or betrayed again. The impact on my mental health has been substantial, and I am still trying to process and recover from what I have experienced. Granted, I'm gonna work on getting my Borderline Personality disorder under control so I can work on not being so defensive and eager to correct the record when I see people spread misinformation and have been going to DBT for the past 2 weeks now. however DBT takes TIME. change and improvement doesn't happen over night. I also want to apologize for the way Ink and I may have made it seem like we were accusing others of being responsible for my suicide attempt. That was not something I intended to place on other people, and I acknowledge that the way the situation was communicated may have given that impression. However, while I am willing to take accountability for my own actions and apologize where I believe is deserved, I reacted out of emotion when i was in the hospital giving updates, and she was really angry about the accounts harassing me and since one of them did actually say they've known Kai for a decade she just assumed kai sent Kole. both me and Mack acted out of emotion, depression and anger and didn't word any thing properly because she was scared and afraid of losing me, and I was not all there in the right headspace to word anything but I was just really eager to update everyone that I was okay and then spend the rest of my time recovering/getting treated. however I will not apologize for the pain I have experienced or pretend that the impact these situations have had on me is insignificant. My experiences and the emotions associated with them are real, regardless of whether others agree with my perspective or choose to support me. I understand that people may not like me for my past mistakes, the way I stand up for myself, my morals, or the impact my mental health and disabilities affect me and my actions, and I cannot force anyone to take my side. However, none of you have lived through these experiences from my perspective or felt their impact exactly as I have. You do not have to agree with me to acknowledge that my experiences have affected me deeply, and disagreement does not make my pain any less real. so whatever happens happens. :/

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