Anxiety queen, fucked family, mother to an toddler with DS & a baby. Currently in therapy & somehow a Jesus follower! I'm really fucken confused!!

Joined June 2009
In the absence of language the mental process of reasoning & judgement cannot exist.
.. The absence of language restricts the possibility of an animal rising above its instinctual nature.
I have such a potty mouth in private!
Seriously i better fucken sleep tonight. Why must my mother have “feelings”. Honestly thats enough! No more feelings please!
Today my mother discovered I am FB friends with my dads girlfriend. She was not impressed to see her comments. It’s been 18mths tho! Grr
Been playing computer game “Horn”. Poor iPad is getting all my aggression. Cant decide if it’s the cause of my anger or just the victim.
Can i just say that this image is my dickhead father who tried to feed the thing….ended badly (he is still alive tho)
@SAHDandproud phew, cos you’d carry that embarrassing feeling around for awhile i reckon. At least you took a risk on the chair. Not so old!
@mamanogrump thanks for the shout out last month. Was too busy pretending i was mentally stable to tweet. Fear not ive realized my error.
@SAHDandproud indeed! No control, no ability to change it. You can tense, lift your head but your still going down! Any one see? :))
@SAHDandproud too funny! Too funny! Not for you but for me.
Maybe this is normal tho. I mean this year alone we renovated house, started new job, sold house, hospitalized son, & did therapy!
It 4am & it took a whole night of not sleeping to realise (& admit) im unwell again.
Part of me feels they r better off without me & my mental illness. i should leave. But i think/hope thats just my fucked up side talking :/
On a positive note I have two beautiful kids who seem to be mentally functioning & developing well.
@b_luca You still make me laugh
Im back.Mostly cos Im mentally unwell again. Need to vent to the world. Took on too much this year. Now my mind & body r fragile.Im here tho
Finally saw an episode of American Idol. Disappointed that none of the contestants are put to death. #FAIL (via @KimJongNumberUn)
Staying over at peoples house & forgot baby monitor is on. Ive got a tummy bug & just farted big time! Hubby came in to tell me. :(