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new delhi | tamil • poet, artist, & korean multi-media enthusiast • best small fictions '23 finalist | BoTN '24 nominee • bread lover • https://xitter.cf/t.co/DvqHxi4KSD

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Joined June 2017
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every conversation with my cat goes like: - you're very tiny - do you know how tiny you are - who authorised you to be as tiny as you are - did you know your ears are even tinier - incoherent noises
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my water contaminated my aqi hazardous my streets unsafe my food adulterated my prime minister modi
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"I'm honestly surprised we're still alive. I do not think this kind of air is suitable for human survival." -- Dr Vijay Hadda, AIIMS Delhi's Lung Specialist, on Delhi's Air Pollution
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hosted a banger diwali party; heart full
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i get that phrase to a certain extent bcs i did have to haul my ass out of bed when i didn't want to & take my meds and eat when i didn't want to. but people did come to save me. someone took me to the hospital after my attempts. my friends sent me food and money. people stayed—
people say "no one is going to save you" to try and motivate depressed people to try and better themselves as if that's not the most suicide inducing phrase ever
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over at my house for days on end in turns to ensure I'd be safe. my therapist & psychiatrist filed a legal case against the hospital that mocked me. people brought me my meds, came over and washed my dishes. people held me as i cried. people called even when i didn't pick up.
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and throughout this i still felt like a burden. i still felt lonely. i still felt like people didn't understand me. but it didn't matter at the end of the day, because people still did save me. they travelled all the way to my house to check in. people sent me wishes and hope.
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"But can't AI just be used to complete unimportant backgrounds or clean up animation?" No. Those are entry level positions that turn into long careers. Bg painters become art directors. Clean up artists become animation leads. Stop trying to cheat.
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WHY WOULD ANYONE INVENT THE SUTLI BOMB WHAT PURPOSE DOES IT SERVE OTHER THAN TRIGGERING MY FIGHT OR FLIGHT RESPONSE
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It’s almost like some kind of.. Complex Stress Disorder… Post a Traumatic event…
BRAIN SCANS HAVE REVEALED CHILDREN LIVING WITH UNSTABLE FAMILIES HAVE BRAIN CHANGES SIMILAR TO COMBAT SOLDIERS AFTER ACTIVE DUTY
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It takes a special kind of people to be breathing toxic air and still choosing to burst firecrackers. The commonest excuse I’ve heard is “It’s Diwali — children need to be children.” Correct, they won’t live to see adulthood breathing Delhi’s air anyway.
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Omg how did a 9 year old drop dead in her class??? The aqi is 700. Omg how did a 20 something die of a heart attack suddenly???? The aqi is 700. Omg howw are miscarriages so common these days??? The aqi is 700.
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as someone with a crippling fear of starting something new, this is very reassuring!
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Your chances of being able bodied your entire life are slim to none. It is always in your best interest to advocate for a more accessible world fr
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yeah
If a healthy person felt how I feel for one hour they would think "you couldn't possibly live like that"
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the girl who was dying to be invited to a diwali houseparty every year is hosting an all-women party this year. life smiles at you sometimes <3 if anyone wants 2 come let me know; i have 3 spots left
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the way 100 days of deception keeps surprising me is insane it throws something completely different at me. i’m laughing, hurting, getting frustrated, getting attached, and somehow loving every second of it. everyone is so good at what they do. i love the writer’s brain so much.
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i just kind of love that 100 days of deception doesnt water down the brutality or horrors of colonialism. its very honest about the sheer cruelty of it all and what it means to have an entire generation of people grow up not knowing what a free country even looks like.
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losing people is like. once you knew me better than i knew myself. now i don't even know if i'll be able to share a meal with you in silence before i die, much less make honest conversation w you. & now i just have to make peace with this fact even though i think of you everyday.
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this poem is called "fester" by phoenix tesni, or alternatively, "i've been so severely depressed & holed up in my room lately that i can't make any good art out of it."
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