But losing means that I'm not having fun, and if I'm not having fun, then I should stop no? I've gone through this cycle too many times, thought about quitting/ retiring and wondering if maybe thats the best choice for me in this stage of my life...

So yeah, not practicing means I've stopped doing well competively at least to my standards; Which is fair, I was never a talented player, I only got better the more I played and as time passes, I expect those who dedicate themself to the game to outdo me...

More than that, I feel a lack of drive. I don't play online due to bad net, I don't watch any Smash competive sets or work on my notes & gameplans as I used to. Even when I go to tourneys, I'd rather head home than wait 30 mins to try and grab friendlies...

But with time spent doing night shifts, spending holidays with my wonderful partner, seeing my friends, spending time with family and pursing other hobbies like D&D and playing pokemon, I feel like I don't have the time to focus on improving my play.

Despite my years competing, in all honesty, I like the people in the scene but I don't feel close enough to anyone to call them my friends. I know this is my own fault in my lack of effort to socialise, and I was okay with it, as long as I could have fun with the competive side.

It was a fun distraction from my studies and other life events. I transitioned into competive and I liked seeing myself rise through the ranks, going from 0-2, to 2-2, HM's to top 40 and breaking even into top 20.

Smash Goals 2026: - Get Top 20 Ranking in Vic - Get 5x PR Wins - Get 3x Top 3 finishes - Go to a Major - Get top 8 at a monthly - Hit 2500 Elo