@LJLP090

I’m just a Welsh girl who loves music and swears too much. #fuckdepression #makechesterproud

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Joined December 2017
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Thank you to everyone who has messaged me, when I find the words I promise I will reply. We said our final goodbye today and it suddenly hit me that I’ve now been a widow longer than I was a wife. Life is cruel. Shattering. I don’t know how to piece myself back together.
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I don’t even know why I’m here. I don’t even know why I’m typing this. I have plenty of people to talk to but I can’t speak. I can’t force any words to leave my mouth.
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She knew he was poorly but she’s so young. I don’t even know if she understood any of it. I know I can’t. He spent the majority of his life trying to die, thinking that’s all he was destined for, but when he was finally learning to live life took him away anyway.
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Oh, Ben. You were destined for so much more than this. I am trying everything in my power not to drink, but I don’t know how to deal with this.
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I am broken.
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Remembering Chester Bennington on the 3rd anniversary of his passing. Whatever YOU are going through, please don’t suffer in silence...In The End it does matter. @allontheboard #ChesterBennington #LinkinPark #RIPChesterBennington #MakeChesterProud – at London, England
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One whole year of life. One whole year of indescribable love. One whole year of you. Happy 1st Birthday beautiful Laya ❤️ @BPDBen
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How did this happen? Two whole years. #soberlife
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Emotional morning for me today as my baby brother is getting married. I’ve never been as proud of anyone as much as I am of you. My best friend and brother all in one ❤️❤️ Waterproof mascara at the ready! @loganj900
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Haven’t been on here in forever, what’s happening? I hope you’re all well ❤️
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To those of you who have messaged, thank you for checking in and I’ll get back to you individually when I get a second. I’m staying on hiatus, it’s very much needed at the moment but we’re doing okay ❤️ I hope everyone is well and taking care of themselves x
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After almost 18 horrendous weeks, we’re getting Ben back tomorrow ❤️
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Happy birthday Mum. My heart breaks a little more with every passing year 💔
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He’s wearing the fucking bunny hat. And a tux. Yes Matty! #BRITS2019 @Truman_Black
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Been a fair bit of silence from me recently. Trying to hold everything together and failing miserably, but hey, what’s new. I hope you’re all well ❤️
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Happy Birthday Dad ❤️❤️
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Laya’s first night at her Nanna’s last night while we went out. Proper out. @the1975 blew my mind, stole my voice and knackered me out so much I slept for over 12 hours. Cheers for a top night lads!
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I’ve been so busy with Laya that I totally forgot about my 13 month sober anniversary 🤦🏻‍♀️🙌🏻
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I’ve been outta the loop... how are you all??
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