⠀ Dipikir-pikir, untung aja waktu itu aku menabrakkan motor Koko sampai rusak. Kalau saja itu tidak terjadi, aku tidak akan punya alasan untuk pergi ke Bengkel Sudut, dan aku tidak akan pernah bertemu dengan calon pacarku ini (Amin.) ⠀

⠀ Sebastian bukanlah pria cengeng yang dengan cupunya memasang wajah memelas atau merengek kepada siapa pun, persis seperti yang kulakukan saat ini. “Ta-tapi bisa diperbaiki, kan? Bisa balik seperti semula? Like nothing ever happened?” Tanyaku, menahan isak tangis. ⠀

⠀ Pada momen itu, aku benar-benar lupa bahwa aku sedang berlakon menjadi Sebastian Kenneth. Aku bahkan tidak sanggup mengendalikan raut wajahku saat kamu menyampaikan kabar mengenai kondisi motor itu. ⠀

⠀ Aku ketakutan setengah mati membayangkan bagaimana harus menghadapi Koko saat pulang nanti. ⠀

⠀ WhatsApp › @Kentarasa Kyle : Koko : I'm in ur room right now : Balas or I'll pee on your bed ( 2 Images attached ) Sent. ⠀

⠀ WhatsApp › @Kentarasa Kyle : Koko : Are you still mad at Kayie? : I’m sorry : What can I do to make it up to you? : Please come home : Mama is worried : I think she’s sorry too : Don’t leave me on read : 😭😭😭😭😭💔 : Where are you? : Miss you 😭😭😭💔💔 ⠀

⠀ Aku ingin seperti Koko! Ingin terlihat keren. 𝙁𝙪𝙡𝙡 𝙤𝙛 𝙧𝙞𝙯𝙯 dan 𝙖𝙪𝙧𝙖𝙢𝙖𝙭𝙭𝙞𝙣𝙜. Juga katanya, pacaran naik motor lebih romantis karena bisa sambil bermesraan dan berpelukan. Aku ingin merasakan itu suatu saat nanti. ⠀

⠀ Aku tarik kata-kataku. Aku tidak mau naik motor lagi seumur hidup. ⠀

⠀ You wouldn't have to come home with bruises that were never meant for you, or be forced to shoulder the blame because you weren't "watching me closely" enough——not when I’m the one who made my own mistakes for shooting my own foot with a BB gun and fell into the pool. ⠀

⠀ You wouldn’t have to grab my hand every time we cross the street, like I might just run straight to a passing car and get hit. You wouldn’t have to step in and fight for me when other kids decide I’m an easy target to bully. ⠀

⠀ If I was you, then mom would also give me the same amount of freedom as you. She wouldn't worry about me too much, and you wouldn’t have to watch me all the time. ⠀

⠀ But... that's only when my mom's not watching. I love my mom, she's the best. But she can be scary sometimes. My brother too, I think they're both alike. Even if Kenneth doesn't really like being told he acts like mom. He told me that he is his own person. ⠀

⠀ I think he's actually mom's favourite. Because if I was her favourite, I wouldn’t have to beg to be treated with the same way as he is. Mom hands him responsibilities and trusts him with things I don't even get the chance to try...unless I beg really hard. ⠀

⠀ Back then, it felt like we were the same person, just split into two. I like Kenneth. He's my favorite person in this whole wide world. My favorite twin brother, even if he’s the only brother I've got. ⠀

⠀ I hope I am mom's favorite, but I also hope that I'm Kenneth's favorite... even if he pushes me away lately. I don't know why we've become so distant as we grew up. We used to sleep, eat, bathe, and play together all the time. ⠀