it's bewildering witnessing with your own eyes everything around you getting progressively worse and worse over the years, not even your major form of escapism is safe. small things each week that pile up. And yet they grab onto your soul for it hasnt been exploited enough yet.

btw, if i happen to forget to respond, cease conversation or do something hella awkward it does not mean i hate you, im never able to hate ppl unless i have a very valid reason, im just catastrophical at human interaction so pls be patient and 'annoy' me how much u want :3