i would rather rot in your garden than bloom in anyone else's 🥀

i would do anything

another day of not being able to stay awake. the way i prefer it to be

my heart has been so heavy this entire year. i’m tired man

yes i found a person who told me they would always be here and after everything that's happened, has proven they meant it. but it isn't MY person, so what's the point

i recently started being able to eat again and manage to gain a little weight back, just to lose most of it this past week and finding myself having zero appetite or concern for my body all over again

i wanna be so soft and i'm only getting numb

yk it's gonna be potent when the surgical gloves come out

i love people who have dead eyes

there's really just one thing that we have in common: neither of us will be missed

i gave up everything. to be left with nothing. but the saddest part is i would do it over and over and over and over and over again if it meant being next to you.

i am somewhere between midnight and forever

the fact that i exist irritates me at least once a day

just in my room losing my fucking mind

i was emotionally prepared to be hated for actions i actually did. i was totally emotionally unprepared for people to make up stuff i didn't do and then hate me for those things. it feels way sadder somehow.

no night has ever felt as empty and sad as this one

but i could never believe another "i'd never leave you" again

you know you really love someone when you can’t hate them for breaking your heart

forced myself to sleep majority of the past 48hrs so that i could avoid enduring the hurt & pain of the heaviness in my heart, only for him to have ended up in every dream i had.......

i have an idontdeserveanythinggood complex