I'm going to be incredibly blunt when I say this and people probably won't like it but... Someone else's mental health isn't your responsibility. Yes, you can try to be supportive and helpful - but in this specific case this person needs help from professionals, not a girl sitting on her couch at home with her husband. Him bringing up suicide could be a call for help, sure, but the way he's acting - it reminds me of exe's who used suicide as a manipulation tactic. It's disgusting, cruel and vile. Suicide is something that shouldn't be joked about, but you also can't expect other people who aren't professionals to help you. It's something HE needs to handle with medical professionals. You can feel bad for him, anyone can - suicide is a horrible thing, but if he's not willing to put in the work to help his mental health - there's literally nothing you can do. He's a threat to himself and anyone around him. It gives Elliot Rodger vibes, The dude who shot up Isla Vista and killed innocent people because he couldn't get a girlfriend. I would honestly just be careful, both you and your husband, because unfortunately we live in a time where mental health issues go unnoticed until it's too late. None of this is your fault, he's doing this to many people. You're doing the right steps to better yourself and your mental health, with your husband being incredibly supportive. You're doing the right thing. Please understand that it's completely normal to feel how you feel, everyone gets there at one point. Just be easy on yourself and take every day as a step by step progress. Don't push yourself too hard and find motivation in the smallest things. Mental health takes time to recover and improve, but you speaking up about it is showing everyone that you're already doing the right thing. This person isn't.