【EN】Phoenix Trihybrid ✧ Actor + Motion Designer ✧ MG acc: @FENN_MG ✎ ⊳ #Artsonist ✉︎ ⊳ [email protected]
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FENN 🔥🎭 retweeted
Despite being (highkey) nervous, I've opened comms on @_VGen_ for video editing for the first time! 🔥
I'm aiming to offer further services in the future such as: debut trailers, channel trailers and possibly even animated overlays and art animation.
✦ VGen link in bio! ✦
FENN 🔥🎭 retweeted
Blowing the dust off this account to hopefully prep (and plug) that I’ll be opening commissions on VGen soon.
I’m just finalising some bits beforehand.
Also I’ll likely have discounts available since this will be my first time opening commissions 🫡
Today was meant to be the start of my 2.0 launch.
But sadly, the past few months just haven’t been kind and I’m now in a position where I’m delaying it indefinitely.
I really hope the light at the end of the tunnel appears soon because I’m getting too tired to keep fighting.
Fenn just received A little treat for birb lady 🐦🔥 from Anonymous via Throne. Thank you! throne.com/fenn_ix #Wishlist #Throne
Aiming to do a comfy stream later of Planet Zoo 2 provided that my brain doesn’t completely go off the rails between now and my normal stream time.
Fingers crossed I’ll see you guys then 🤞🏻❤️🔥
Fenn just received Given, Vol. 7 - Paperback from Anonymous via Throne. Thank you! throne.com/fenn_ix #Wishlist #Throne
Long post, sorry.
I’m not making any form of decision now but I’m truly reaching my limit.
Between the health of my family, my own health, no stable income and severe low self-esteem, I’m reaching the point of stopping content creation entirely.
I am tired. That’s the core of it.
The only thing stopping me is the fact I still enjoy streaming, editing, the whole thing. But time simply isn’t on my side and I can’t just neglect the other major things taking up said time.
Growth will always hit peaks and troughs but I’ve had such minimal growth in 2026. It’s hard to not view myself as a failure and I know my low self-esteem contributes to this feeling. I’m so grateful for my Fennatics, and people sticking with me despite all the cancellations, delays and whatnot.
My fear is I’ll never be able to be as consistent as I want to be. Which, I think, is what has bought on these thoughts of stopping entirely.
Financially, I’m nearing the point of being unable to afford the software I use for content creation and motion graphics, which would prevent me from being able to pursue a career in the field I spent a year studying a Master’s degree for.
I’ve considered pursuing a non-creative career, but living with Fibromyalgia, deteriorating physical health, and GAD means that a job requiring me to commute and be physically present every day would be highly debilitating. This significantly limits my options in an already incredibly competitive job market.
My community knows I’ve started the process of being referred for breast reduction. But this process and the long waiting lists may take anywhere from 6 months to 3 years, that’s assuming I’m eligible for the surgery. I despise going out and basically permanently live in baggy tops and skirts to hide my figure. Until recently I didn’t realise this was also the cause of my breathing difficulties. Throughout my whole life, I’ve had a pretty positive view of myself. Now, I hate looking in the mirror.
At the moment, I just want to curl up into a ball and hope the world goes away for a bit.
I’m really sorry for being such a terrible content creator. When I figure out if I want to continue, I’ll let you know.
Since Papa Fenn is back in hospital, streams & 2.0 are up in the air again.
I’m also desperately fighting a depressive episode and trying to keep my head above water.
So, as always, thank you for being patient with me. I’m doing my best 🥲
Streaming whilst I wait for hopital news from the Fenn-rents
LIVE 🔥🎭 ⊳⊳ twitch.tv/fenn_ix
With 2.0 on the horizon I’m so scared that 2 years of planning and prep will be for, well, nothing.
I’m proud of it, regardless. But so much work and effort from myself and so many others has gone into it. I want all the incredible artists I’ve been blessed to work with to get the credit they deserve.
Numbers aren’t everything, but it’s the only metric content creators have to go by. We can’t NOT look at numbers every now and again.
I’ve been hindered so much by my Fibromyalgia this year that I’ve struggled to work on, not only my content, but the things that will help me find employment again. Truthfully, I’m in the most concerning financial position I’ve been in for 4 years, largely due to unexpected costs from my studies and just… well, life shit.
And I feel as though I’m reaching the end of my metaphorical tank, a little. Although I have no intention of stopping my content creator activities, I’m not sure where I’ll stand after 2.0.
My community is so lovely and patient. However I cannot stop feeling like a big ol’ failure.
Apologies for venting on main. Perhaps I’ll delete this later, and maybe I’ll feel better tomorrow.